Democracy Under Siege

Every day I think I have seen it “all” with the demolition of our federal government and the rise of authoritarian rule in America. Then either Trump, Barr or the GOP Senate does something even lower and more illegal, more against the “rules” we’ve always operated by, and more evil to the people of the USA – particularly those already busting ass to make it work any way they can. It’s like they are enjoying tearing our country apart; relishing the cries of the citizens and ignoring ALL that is clearly turning us away from democracy. It’s terrifying. And it SHOULD terrify EVERY American citizen and all of those living in America legally or illegally. EVERY ONE of US need to be fighting back, it’s time to rise up in defense of American life, liberty and our vague pursuit of happiness.

The American dream has now become a nightmare and Trump & Crew are happily pushing the boundaries, breaking down the laws, and taking authoritarian control of what used to be the Federal Government in the USA,

I don’t know where to start to even think about how to fight this; what my part needs to be and where to begin to exert any influence I am able to exert. We need hard leadership, we need to come together as citizens and show our power – and we DO have power. We actually have far more power than they do, they are just scaring all of those who are unaware of the actual powers that citizens in a democracy have and can use to end sieges such as this. They were carefully and copiously fitted into the US Constitution and the Federalist papers explain things very articulately.

I think that the candidates vying for the Democratic nomination need to have a BIG meeting of the minds. They need to regroup, come together as a solidly unified fighting force to beat the Republican assault on Democracy, ignorance toward our laws, and illigitimate stances on vital issues of national security. We must eliminate their lock step advance toward full autocracy NOW; form an inpenetrable wall and bring all of us supporters together as one unified body that will return integrity, respect and LAW and ORDER to the USA. I do not believe that any one of those running – and 3 of them are spectacular – can do this alone. Unifying the Democratic party into one solid grouping is vital to beating the GOP’s drive and eliminating the threat of a fascist take over of the American government.

Many groups have formed since 2016’s horrible election and it’s disasterous results, to fight the threats to all of our prided insititions, such as the Congress, National Security, Ecology, Pollution, Corporate greed and rampant corruption being played out by the Republican party in every way, shape and form they can think of to destroy us, to weaken our will and to keep us from revolting, speaking out and rebuffing their plans. It is hard to know at this point whether this is a internally coordinated sabotage effort or if this is being fueled by foreign influence, such as Russia and Putin or China, No.Korea, Syria and the Saudi Arabian murderous regime.

The continued effort on our parts, as American Citizens alarmed and affected by this whole mess, to form legitimate groups and fight back is essential. We must build on these groups, work together and stay united against the GOP rise to fascism and autocracy. I am imagining a central entity will arise from our efforts that will assist in aligning us all for the proper, non-violent fight ahead of us all.

As Rachel Maddow said on her Wednesday evening show, “What do we do NOW?”

My suggestions are:

1. Remain calm, but vigilant, aware and educated on every move they make.
2. Join you local chapters of “Resist” “MoveOn” ACLU, and make sure you are registered to VOTE!
3. Pick an institution or two that are under attack by the GOP and co. and get behind them, write letters to your Senators, Congressmen, local officials and anyone in any position of authority or power associated with that institution. Example: We must inundate Pelosi with demands for the impeachment of Bill Barr, current AG, and Mitch McConnell. Call for their censure, investigations into their activities that are favoring King 45, etc.
4. Call your Senator daily. Switchboard number is :
5. Go to local and regional protests. The GOP administration is calling for elimination or limits on protesting in 18 states thus far! This is a direct attack on our 1st Ammendment rights.
6. Write Op Ed pieces for your local news sources, online or print. Submit them! Contact good reporters at those organizations, ask them to write on various stories that are related to the destruction of our vital institutions in America, such as the courts, the DOJ, judges, election protection, women’s choice rights, etc. Get behind your journalists
7. Support and protect our nation’s journalists everywhere. They are being retaliated against and directly attacked, many fear for their lives and the safety of their families because the GOP Administration is super hostile toward journalists – especially those who report the TRUTH and not the “fake news” or made up “facts” that come out of our White House – YES OUR White House – not theirs!
8. Attend as many local gatherings concerning the most vital of issues.
9. Join Facebook groups – local, regional and national, to stay on top of what is happening.
10. Create your OWN local groups, hold house meetings, church meetings or find free space to meet and discuss what’s happening and what we all can do. Review current words from the WH and news reports, organize local protests, or organize trips to Washington DC for larger protest events.
11. Before reposting news articles remember to fact check through Snopes.com for truth and accuracy. Try NOT to repost or fall for any untrue, FAKE news reports.
12. Don’t repost ANY video of #45 telling LIES to the camera and thus the American people, this just promotes his FAKE NEWS and ignorance, hatred and hostility.
13. Don’t argue with his supporters, in person or online, they just don’t listen and will not change.
14. Take care of yourself and your loved ones. Make time to disconnect weekly and just be in quiet space to regroup, maybe take a nature walk, or go to the beach, a museum or art exhibit. Just get away.
15. Remember, we are ALL going to fight this evil TOGETHER. You are NOT alone in your angst and concern for all that is happening to America.

I would like to get feedback and input from everyone. Tell me what’s going on in your neck of the woods, what are you doing to stay aware and prepared? What concerns you MOST? Are you registered to VOTE? Please like this post if you ARE registered!!!

Much Kindness to ALL… ~ MB

Deep Thoughts and a Look Back on 2019

 

“No one is ever promised and easy path through this snake infested swamp…and then it’s suddenly our turn to cross that black water, or become lost in the past, perpetually locked in suspended states of illusion. Just where are you going? What’s the purpose of your journey? Do you know? Or have an idea? sigh ah, and there it is…the never-ending stream of unanswerable, internal, silently screaming questions bombarding our brains, commandeering our thoughts; demanding answers — for which we have none…yet.” {asl 2019}

If I died alone, never meeting the one for me, so be it, that’s what was meant to be. But I found the one for me, my soulmate. She is my partner, and my best friend. The mere thought of not being able to talk to her again, discuss science, argue about politics, talk of the obvious existence of extraterrestrials, the chance to make each other laugh…. these things fill me with a dread and sadness I can’t put into words.

It really all comes down to this though: tell your loved ones you love them. Don’t let things end on bad notes. Don’t go to bed angry. Take the blame during a fight even if you’re right, because life is so much more fleeting than you realize. Do nice things for people, express your appreciation. Be romantic, be kind, be optimistic. Do not allow fear and anger to rob you of your happiness ever. Be bold. Take chances. Love hard. Do not let go easily, be resilient. And always, always say ‘I love you’ upon parting.

2019 was an upside down year; one of those years where you learn the hard way to roll with the punches of life events and try not to let that bad taste in your mouth linger for too long as it will slowly poison you from the inside out. It’s one of the years that presented me with a HUGE learning event and some MUCH needed wisdom and guidance around life and living with purpose – not just sliding by from day to day. While that method seems to somehow make sense at times, it’s not really any way to live every day. We each need purpose and we each have desires. Those must be fulfilled or we end up just empty and floating aimlessly in the sea of darkness, alone, afraid and feeling quite useless. Nothing makes sense. No one makes sense. It leads us often to the quesiton “what is the point?” — never a good question to be asking oneself.

I haven’t been myself for a couple of months now. I was losing ground. Feeling stupid and not taking care of myself as I should have been doing. I had let myself become heavily invested in someone who came into my life 2 years ago; someone I believe is a real soulmatch for me. What I did wrong, in hindsight, is I allowed myself to let down my walls far too soon, and far to low.I lost touch with that one major Butch rule: “Never let your life be control or guided by pussy – anyone’s pussy – ever.” Until the day one of my Butch brothers slapped me on the back hard and said those words right into my face from about 10″ away, adding “Get a grip, man. Get a grip!” He was right on the money too. I had given over too much while not taking what I needed in return. I was over-confident that she loved me as I loved her. I let my guard down because of that and I am paying dearly still. Perhaps for a long, long time to come. Guess that’s to be determined.

I’ve been rolling these thoughts over and over in my head for weeks on end now. Trying to make sense of which way to go now. How to I reclaim my power? How do I find my worth once again? Who the hell AM I now??? I am not even sure of that anymore. This really took a LOT out of me. I never, ever saw it coming. Completely blindsided by someone I trusted more than anyone I had ever trusted in my life before. THAT fucking HURT the hardest.

I know that I have to continue to work through this myself. I know that I can and will do it; I’ll be damned if I let this keep me down or change my positiive attitude. I don’t want to live with doubt and fear. Nor do I ever wish to become so involved or over-confident in someone like that ever again without a very specifically laid out contractual agreement of the rules between us. I didn’t move on doing that with this person, because I was taking it “slow” and now I see the very, very big error in that way!

I also see things like making sure that both people have a really good idea of thier personal desires for the direction of the relationship – before becoming overly invested or even tossing out the “L” word. Relationships are great support for anyone, if they are healthy and equally tended to by both parties. One cannot “give” more than the other in the emotional department especially. Both must be willing to be equally vulnerable and thus trusting.

Don’t you just wish like a motherfucker that we KNEW all of these little tidbits of relationship tips before we stumbled into someone we wanted to love with all we’ve got inside? Wouldn’t that just make love so much easier? Ah, but the unknown of ‘love’ is part of the mysteriousness that makes it so damned attractive and alluring. The discovery process is so intoxicating that in our drunken love state we often lose sight of reality and throw caution to the wolves. It’s almost comical -but really NOT – how foolish we get over lust and love as well as how often we confuse the two states completely.

I can still shut my eyes, lay my head back on the pillow and see every curve, every hair, every mark on her body in my mind. I knew that body very well. And I showered that body and mind with love beyond anything I had given to anyone before. That’s pretty fucking deep to even say, but it’s fucking right as rain. Yes, I have lots of photos I could refer to, but I have boxed them all up and stored them away, out of sight to try to keep the visions of a minimum. It hurts to look at her photo and those eyes…those gorgeous eyes. With my eyes still shut I can inhale and still find her smell lingering in the recessed depths of my brain. I still feel her laying next to me, finger tips tracing across my chest, my jawbone, sweeping into my short hair as she leans in to kiss me passionately. Yes, I have all of those so very real memories driving me insane nightly. I wish so hard to be swallowed up by those thoughts and memories and be forever lost in space with only her as my company; my sustenance, my survival until that final heartbeat goes still and I can forget. That is the only thing that will make me forget. The only thing.

Everyone has their own reality in this life. No two are the same. Most aren’t even similar. Often our immediate life circumstance is the basis for most of our reality based choices and decisions. For example, my life as an older, single Butch with no children or major responsibilities at this point in my life is vastly different from my recent girl’s circumstances with having a special needs child that needs 24/7 care, a husband who is there in the picture daily to support the two, and a professional life she tries to manage around it all, and what I thought was a desire for a lesbian partnership too.

Once, in the not-so-distant past, I thought that these two different realities would mesh together and be very good for all involved. I thought, and was willing to, I could provide much physical and emotional support to her and to him as well with the kiddo. Because I love her so deeply – and grew to adore and love the child as well – I believed that I would be good for them all; be a good fit and be a very loving partner in the sphere of things. I personally still actually still believe this could be true. I had reached a point where I am fully willing to change my physical situation in life to be close to her and continue the relationship into whatever the next phase would be. We were close to making something close to that happen when the world fell apart for us. So close.

It’s no longer of any use to rehash the events that lead to the demise of our relationship. I don’t even care about those things anymore. It’s useless to keep even thinking about them, so I have basically forgotten about 90% of it now. I wish it had never happened, but it did and I didn’t know what to do, how to handle it, or which way to turn to figure it out. I found myself standing very alone on the precipice of darkness, without the anchor which had held me happily steady for almost 2 years. It was the saddest day of my life to date. Hands down, saddest. I felt true loss and had no one who understood or to lean on in that time. That’s when I truly learned how fucking strong I am inside. I weathered the most serious storm of my personal life by myself, unassisted and did it with the most dignity I could muster. Maybe it wasn’t perfect, but I never claimed perfection…but I’ve weathered all of it as good as I could.

Our lives happen in chapters. This is close to the end of chapter 5 for me. Generally I’ve experienced the chapters to coincide closely with decades and milstone marks. Childhood, teen years, 20’s (insanity), 30’s settling, 40’s realizing what I was missing something big, and the 50’s trying to find that more stable, decent life I desire, more purpose and a partner I can count on to be at my side. Maybe these chapters are similar for many of us. I know through conversations that I share much with many of my Butch counterparts. And sometimes we even have to refer back to a previous chapter, a specific page perhaps, to help us through the current chapter a bit easier. There’s no set “road-map” of this lifestyle, just a gut feeling and some pretty honestly ethical ways and rules to things. I dislike hard rules, but there are about 5 Butch rules that I find I have to be guided by always or I get off track and all fucked up! Ha!

Insanity is the ritual of doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. This is the most true of statements ever spoken. Yet, we all do it. We all try to get what we want in the ways that we are comfortable and used to using…even if it doesn’t work this time, maybe it will next time…where that fucked up thinking comes from is beyond my comprehension.

Ok, enough deep thought for today/tonight. It’s been a pretty good last-Saturday in 2019. IT was a super sunny, warm (50 degrees F!), gorgeous day to be alive. I got tons done, preparing myself and my home for 2020’s arrival on Wednesday.

2019 will definitely be a memorable year- if not for the right reasons, then for some of the more bleak or perhaps less attractive ones. Hey, nothing is guaranteed or promised – ever. Not in life, loving or living on this planet in this time dimension. WE ALL struggle to roll out of bed every morning and do it all over again. Some days we literally stop and ask ourselves, “Why?”, and some days we just pretend we are enjoying it as we slurp down coffee and race off to the office or work site for the day. Whatever we have to do to make it work; to keep us going in a somewhat forwardish direction, and to try to live our best lives, as our most authentic selves, we just do it. Over and over. Lather, rinse, repeat. Whether we are happy or not…THAT is literally up to each one of us personally to determine and make it so — or not. Choices.

Peace. ~ MB

As the Hoax Turns….

I currently, like most, have a lot of free time on my plate right now. How to use each day has become a bit of a game. Usually at some point each evening I make a “list” of things that I “think” I will do the next day. Now, what I should do when I finish said list is to ball it up and send it into file 13 via a 3-point jump shot from a sitting position on my couch half-way across the room. Can’t you just picture it? The grace of a couch potato during a pandemic? Yeah, I know it’s a dumbass picture, but I’m attempting to entertain you here and squeak a smile out of that frown; trying to make some sort of morbid lightness out of a dark situation.

You get my drift, the list is useless. By morning my mind has wandered half way around he world and decided to do completely different things than were on that suggestion list. Yeah, that’s what it was a “suggestion” list. Ha. Sure, those things on the list should be, or perhaps even need to be, done at some point but I can think of nothing that needs to go on the list that is anywhere’s near critical to complele, thus the list will hit the trash can and I’ll do another one tonight for which the same fate will apply. Now, why do I do this weird thing? Because I have every good intention, but my follow-through sucks. By the time morning rolls around five thousand other ideas have meandered through the forest of my mind.

Each day this grows more and more sobering. Each day new fears arise. Each day something new about this virus is exposed making even more frighening. Each day the stories of the brave, the helpers, the frontline people trying to save lives are told to us in news outlets attempts to bring some “feel-good” stuff to us before diving into the worst things they can tell us about various viral “hot spots” in different countries. Each day new governmental guidelines are issued; not direct orders or mandates here in the USA, but “guidelines” and “suggestions”. Each day I wonder when the fuck thisfis going to end and who I will hear has been infected or is waiting for test results. Yes, each day it’s something new, different, updated or changed about the world’s war with Coronavirus19.

This morning’s “biggest news” thus far is that Italy sadly reported the death of the 10,000th person from CV19. News centers have continued to report that the United States is 10 days behind Italy in what we will experience eventually. Scary as fuck when you can literally SEE what is in store for us in just a few short days. t

It doesn’t matter how many are tested, how many ventilators there are or what our leaders’ say, the death toll continues to rise, doubling overnight in some places. The time for testing, procuring enough medical supplies and equipment, having emergency hospital spaces lined up and ready for full use as well as other preparations in readiness, that time was TWO MONTHS ago. Unfortunately, that window of opportunity was shut long before US citizens were aware it was even open.

This aforementioned “advanced notice” that Trump and his administration thugs actually got from Chines leadre Xi and China’s top scientists/doctors was NOT something our lovely leader wanted to have mentioned to us, his constituents, yes US Citizens – those whose interests he is supposed to be working for until his contract expires. Yes, come November, he will more than likely be replaced with a newer, up-to-date, faster, sleekler, more efficient and effective model. Time to retire the old stuff; it’s time has come. Everything wears out eventually as it grows old and tired. Then old, tired things must be replaced because of age, or being broken or out of date – which ours is all THREE now. He’s just out of date and cannot perform in today’s fast paced, techno-savvy world – or in any world containing human beings. No, this particular specimen is best suited for installing basic ATM machines for Deutchebank until his final expiration date rolls around and the big man calls him up on the carpet.

I’ve come to my own conclusion that it’s useless to argue politics during this in-progress pandemic of our lifetime. This is THE EVENT that each of us WILL remember where we were and what we were doing when Coronavirus19 came into light of day, brought to us not by our “fearless leader” (from which it should have come in a special talk to the nation, no it was simply reported to us like any old news of the day on most news and media platforms.

Trump was informed of this Coronavirus19 back in January 2020 and made a conscious choice to keep the warnings of the virus and how dangerous and contagious it is to himself. He did not immediately do or say ANYTHING. He went on about his personal business, which is what he does daily in the White House, and he ignored scientific evidence and medical advice to prepare the United State for the arrival of coronavirus19, which he was TOLD was inevitable and could be devastating. It was at that time thatTrump made the decision NOT to use the Pandemic Playbook which was compiled by experts in diseases and their control. This playbook contained step-by-step guidelines for dealing with all of the logistics of an epidemic / pandemic; all of the direcitions, protocols, and results of tabletop exercises that helped deal with pandemics. Donald J. Trump’s complete bumble-fuck of this national security crisis and world pandemic has been nothing – NOTHING – short of abysmal.

The United States of America, richest nation on earth, had NO PLAN in place to deal with any disease breakout, epidemic, pandemic or bio-weaponry – which we KNEW at least one of them WOULD eventually happen. The Pandemic Preparedness team from the National Security Counsel was disbanded by Jeff Sessions and Donald Trump, right after they fired the team leader, Tom Bossert in April 2018. Why disband this vital part of our homeland security? Because Pres. Obama formed it and Trump didn’t believe we needed it because “that will never happen here”. No, we needed a wall to stop illegal immigration way before anything that would directly protect ALL Americans. SMH. Go figure. NOW which is needed more???

This complete lack of preparedness at the federal government level and the utter failure to disseminate Coronavirus19 information to state governors and state CDC leaders and those who really needed to KNOW so they could prepare in advance, has directly resulted in this consistently botched response to handling it by our government.

First they failed by prolonging ANY response whatsoever. Then they failed in testing by having NO testing kits. The WHO offered Trump 250 million tests way back at the begininng, but he said no. He wanted US companies (probably $$ in it for him or someone in his “circle”) to develop one to use. So, NO testing for the first THREE weeks after we KNEW we needed to start testing IMMEDIATELY. Testing is CRUCIAL to slowing any epidemic – let alone a PANDEMIC. S. Korea tested 66,000 people in ONE WEEK, and it took us 3 weeks to get anywhere near that.

Trump continued to sabotage efforts by our scientists and doctors to sound the alarm about this deadly virus by taking to national television and calling the pandemic a “hoax” that Democrats cooked up to hurt his re-election chances, he claimed it was no worse than the common flu – NO it’s TEN TIMES more contagious and more potent than the flu and may have a kill rate even higher (that number will be unknown until the first round of this novel virus Coronavirus19 is finished. We should have a better idea as we enter the bounce back round, which is inevitable. He told us that he has a “hunch” it’s not really “that bad” and it will “miraculously” disappear, “….one morning we will wake up and it will be a miracle.”

Trump has very limited understanding of science, we all KNOW that from all of the previews into his brain that he let’s out occasionally, like him making fun of the disabled reporter, or his claiming h can and will do “whatever he wants because Article 2 gives him ultimate authority, or the claim that our Revolutionary forces took Britain’s airports over during our war for independence. It’s right up there close to his unbelievable knowledge of US or World History….good ‘ole rocket-scientist he is! Ha! His complete ignorance, refusal to acknowledge the truth and FACTS, his convincing ways of deceiving the public with baseless, made up statements and “alternate” facts….yeah, he’s still using those! Trump REMOVED our chances here when HE FIRED Tom Bossert and the Pandemic Response Team and yet he say he has “No responsibility” for any of this or for any lack of response. He claims it’s the “China” virus’s fault. Ignorant useful idiot.

So, it’s useless to talk politics. so I’m not comparing our current president to anyone else, but I am just stating the obvious in my above words. I think it’s fantastically ironic how this all is playing out and how absolutely STUNNED the rest of the civilized world must BE at watching the greatest country on Earth’s response – or actually LACK OF RESPONSE – to a crisis right on our own soil, with our own systems, products, people, corporations, and American Dollars backing us, our federal government, with all it’s boldness of thought, action and speech has responded LIKE THIS? What a joke…which is NOT funny because as the USA is still playing catch up our death toll rises, doubling every 3 days now.

It is not Trump’s fault really, the blame for this big ass mess of non-response belongs to his entire administration. It belongs to all of those GOP Senators who have fiercely defended him, even when it’s come to paying off prostitutes or buying services from foreign governments to interfer with our elections. It belongs to Sessions and whoever else let Trump think that disabling our Pandemic Response Team was in any way a good idea – they SHOULD have fought him to the ground on this one. UYet they have continually allowed Trump and his family to jeopardise the security of the United States and I don’t believe that ANYONE really understands what it IS about Trump that has the old Republicans so scared of him and so willing to defend even his most illegal and immoral actions. Something is fishy in Denmark.

I am so sad for the world. Sad for my country and for those who are fighting battles with this virus, either themselves in their personal health or as a front-line healthcare worker or essential services person putting their lives at risk so the rest of us can maintain the “social distancing” and try to avoid becoming infected with this dangerous virus. Because this is entirely new to us and our medical and scientific people we don’t know enough about it to understand how long we are going to have to endure this, but we WILL do it. We are resilient people and with each other’s support and love we will make it through yet another crisis, somehow.

Once this is all over and behind us – which cannot be TOO SOON – then we can have a look back and see what happened, when, why and how. Then we can decide who needs to buck up and take some responsibility and for which part. Until then we need to remain strong, unite as Americans and get through this together.

I hope your Monday is a good day, take it easy and be good to yourself and be kind to others. And for hell’s sake, take care of each other!

Peace and good health! ~ MB

Utopian Reality…

Day to day, this is how we now live – around the world. Each day we wake take care of the first thing business, get ourselves a coffee and visibly flinch as we reach to turn on the news. Never before has life been this unpredictable for some many at once.

The virus was a naturally occurring disaster, the response to it by our gov’t was a totally disaster of willful ignorance and stubborn egotistical shortsightedness. Trump didn’t want it to affect his presidential campaign or chance for reelection – which he obviously values far more than he does any human life that could be saved if he were to do the right things – so he did what he always does with these annoying things, he pretended the virus was not true, it was “a hoax by the Democrats ” to stymie his reelection bid. With this type of blatant inaction he has not jeopardized approximately 3.3M individual lives of Americans by making us ALL more at risk for infection, severe sickness and possibly the ultimate cost of our lives.

Incapable of putting the needs of others before his own desires, ahead of his feelings and ego. It’s having a direct, very negative affect on how we have been able to respond to this pandemic racing through America and around the whole world. As much as I truly dislike #45 I REALLY wish he could – just for this once – make the right decisions for the country, putting his own need for praise and applause on hold for just a little while to get this under some resemblance of control.

Now, due to our complete lack of guidance and leadership, our healthcare workers are being forced to work in dangerous, unacceptable conditions putting many of them directly in the line of fire for catching the CV19 virus. They don’t all have the proper PPE, or enough of it, and are reusing the one-time-use products. This would be criminal at any other time. The gov’t claim they have “strategic stockpiles” and are shipping products to the states…what everyone is asking is WHERE are these “stockpiles” and WHERE is the product promised? It’s not arriving at the designated places, no matter how many times it’s “ordered” by each state governor. Of course, all gov’t officials – including #45 himself, keep repeating “it’s on the way” “it’s been shipped” “so-and-so is receiving those items tomorrow”…etc…just stalling and avoiding the questions asked about these items and their true availability.

Here in America the desperate calls for PPE, hospital beds, ventilators, etc. is being answered, somewhat, by private companies and our citizens. American ingenuity, some people making masks one by one by hand with whatever materials they can procure on their local markets. We are crowdsourcing efforts to get things moving and into the hands of the frontline workers who need them. Elon Musk and Jeff Bezos have both pledged $10M to help with these private and personal efforts people are endeavoring. If nothing, this pandemic has brought out so much good from people and companies. We are watching and reading about individual heroic efforts to pitch in and help where it’s needed. We have several state governors who have really stepped up to the plate and taken the lead in hleping guide other states who have less. We’ve also sadly seen the opposite, those who align with #45’s temper tantrum methodology of shame, blame and willful ignorance.

With all of this madness going on all around the world it’s difficult to imagine what life will be like when this finally comes to an end – who knows when that will be. The UK is seeing infecion rates double every 3 days. The USA now has the most cases in the world, and although we have over 100,000 known infections doctors and scientists claim that in reality there is most likely 3 times that number. Some countries, like Iran, are suffering devastating loss and have little to no medical help for their people, citing a lack of hospitals, supplies, doctors and nurses and other support services. Yes, it’s a very scary worldwide mess. Everyone has every reason to be frightened, for themselves, for their families and for their friends and co-workers. All we can each do is work together and keep trying to make it through this horrific time in history. That’s all we can do.

Personally, it’s been hard to write lately because the pace of things is so furiously fast. Things seem to be just exploding here in the USA. With the daily death rate continuing to rise and the pressure of seeing people so distraught when they cannot be with dying loved ones, I feel emotionally overwhelmed and at a loss for words much of the time. Meaning well, I plan different blogs out but then when I sit to write different things come from the tips of my fingers and brain than I had originally intentioned.

I have been working like crazy around my property to keep my mind off of things. I’ve been taking the dogs for walks over on the old town farm property, exploring, taking photos, watching birds and trying to think about better times. I’ve written letters to old friends, made calls to people I haven’t talked to in ages, and checked on my family and friends daily as well. My Facebook friends lists are fairly extensive because of my blogging and vlogging over the years and sadly now I am being notified daily about people dying from the virus. Yesterday alone it was 4 people from my friends list that passed away. Sad. Scary. I am ready for this to STOP.

Be well my friends. Practice social distancing and take care of yourself and your loved ones. We will get through this, just keep caring and doing what YOU can do.

Love to all. ~MB

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The Isolation Diaries

Day 5…Fridaay, March 20, 2020…still in Coronavirus19 isolation. Yeah, I’m one of the millions who are taking the virus seriously because I am immune compromised and very prone to pneumonia. I don’t want to be exposed, or to expose anyone else! I am just hoping that I haven’t been exposed thus far.

Wow, CBP is about to mass export people who have come thru the borders, north and south, at midnight tonight they are going to fly them all out of the country and return them to their countries of origin. This is just the opportunity that Trump and Co. have been waiting for to throw these people out of our country and back into chaos in the countries they fled in fear of their lives. This is a certain death sentence for most of them, from either violence or this virus now. Another very sad result of this time in our history.

In ten years, when you think back to this time in your life and in our country’s history timeline, what will you say about it? What will you tell those who either weren’t here yet, or who are too young to remember – so far – ? What are you doing to remember this series of life events we are ALL experiencing at the SAME time pretty much? How do you see this changing you? How are you coping with the anxiety and stress of worrying about those you cannot reach out and touch right now?

Being stuck at home like this is kind of weird. I keep reaching for my wallet and keys only to then remember I’m grounded like the rest of you all. I’ve become very good at washing my hands extra, both in time and number. I find myself talking more to the dogs – like they understand, which I have my own theory that they DO, at least the researched 250 words and the ability to count to 5. Even tonight I told Lulu I was giving her 4 little treats (equals 1 mini biscuit) and I watched as she watched each one being put down and then looked up the the next. When we got to #4 she stopped looking and commenced eating. I practice this with both dogs – even tho Nola cannot hear me very much anymore and her sight is failing as well. At night she’s totally dependent on me and Lu for guidance to get outside and maneuver the dog yard. She’s physically very healthy and happy as a clam in the sand.

She turns 12 on June 10th 2020, and yes, she’ll make her annual special trip to McD’s for her birthday burger. The dog lives ALL YEAR for that one day, it’s funny as fuck. Whenever I say “McDonald’s” or “happy meal” or “birthday” she gets super excited, jumping around, barking and insisting I put on her collar! This gets out of hand when Lulu realizes what Nola is saying and joins in the affray as well. She cannot be left out – dog god forbid! I thank the Warrior Goddess for giving me these 2 crazy little fur friends for companionship and to love and care for to the end. They really keep me entertained and laughing. They also keep me irritated and yelling at them when they start the “stupid time” barking at every leave that flys by the window just a little too fast…BARK, BARK, BARK….you get the gist…gotta love the little shits anyway!

Delivery drivers are making a mint right now – as they SHOULD be! So do NOT forget they are putting themselves at RISK to bring you that sushi or pizza, so tip them appropriately – like fucking BIG. Then don’t you DARE bitch or complain about the cost of delivery, not one bit. We owe our survival right now to all of those out there in the wild dealing with millions of us who are all currently held voluntarily hostage. Delivery people should be richly rewarded, as should ALL who HAVE to still work and risk exposure to keep the rest of us alive and well.

I am following Gov. Andrew Cuomo from New York, and his updates. He honestly sounds like the only person giving us the REAL truth and explaining how seriously dire this situation is to our country and each of us individually. It’s becoming more serious each passing day as we all try like hell to understand what is happening and how to handle it ourselves.

Lock Down…Day 4

So, it’s Thursday, March 19, 2020….day four of our voluntary lock down here in southern Maine and coastal NH. It’s eerie. Just weird.

I got up because I couldn’t sleep. The anxiety plus all the lifting I did yesterday has my body pretty sore. I don’t know if it’s just me, but I also have sniffles and am sneezing this morning. Dammit. If I get this virus shit it will NOT be funny. I easily get bronchitis and pnuemonia. I just downloaded the app, it’s for keeping track of temperature, and it creates a data base that’s more accurately predicting pockets of this virus than the CDC.

I watched a couple of videos from Italians warning us here in America of what’s coming for us in just 10 days, and advising us to cooperate with the stay in place and remain calm, yet stay informed as much as possible. This is a very serious time, not one to take lightly. I can’t believe that 13 states still haven’t done much at all. In 9 days we will have a total of over 80,000 cases here in the USA and who knows how many dead by then. Frightening I know, I wish it wasn’t true. I know everyone wishes that, let’s just all take this seriously so we can keep it down to a minimum.

I did a little preparing last week before this all got super serious. I bought a back stock of paper goods and food, plus cat and dog food – yes the damned cat is STILL here! I also laid in a good stock of gummies and flower so I won’t be calling for delivery. Plus I have more tincture made up to make another batch of gummies should I feel up to it. I may just take this time to do that! Got some back up batteries and made sure I knew where stuff was located.

Our healthcare providers are really at risk right now. They’re short of personal protective equipment like masks, gloves, and gowns. This virus is so contagious that you have to change after every patient completely. The national stockpile is pretty measly – I don’t care what the orange idiot is flapping his lips about, our government dropped the fucking ball BAD this time. We don’t have nearly enough equipment to take care of all of those who will get sick simultaneously, that’s why it’s VITALLY IMPORTANT that we stay away from each other, stay home and break the cycle of this germ.

And the big problem is that we no longer make our own stuff here in the USA. All of that stuff is made in CHINA and they need it too, as does the EU and Italy especially. They can’t make it fast enough or make enough of it to fill the need.

I hope that we learn some super valuable lessons. The biggest we need to learn is NOT to elect an imbecile as president. Trump totally ignored this for over 2 months. Then called it a democratic hoax. He fired the pandemic preparation team and the scientists and doctors back in 2018. Thus leaving us very vulnerable to something we KNEW would happen, just not when. Thus, our federal response has been non-existant, even though they spout off about how much they’re “doing” when on TV as they slather praise on the Orange Idiot for his “early action”, yeah right! The US military hasn’t been properly activated for domestic assistance yet. And although the 2 navy ships, the Mercy and the Comfort are headed to each shore, they aren’t yet manned and ready to jump into action. They’ll be used for those WITHOUT the virus who require hospitalization, traumas, heart patients, etc.

All of us alive today don’t recall the early 1900’s and the Spanish Flu pandemic that lasted 3 years and killed millions globally. We weren’t ready then and aren’t now. We are all in for a helluva Spring and Summer I believe. Don’t make any plans, nothing is going to be moving or open. Best thing we can all do is hunker down, use social media and snail mail, and just ride this out – paying attention to the REAL FACTS and not relying on our government to always be forthright with them.

Here’s a video I made this morning…describing some of what I’ve been doing and have lined up to do.

Hang in there my readers! Stay in touch with each other and try to remain calm and sane. We can do this. #stayhome

Stay Home!!! ~ MB

Trump’s Biggest Failure to Date…Corvid19 epidemic

Trump’s unprecedented and very unfortunate mishandling and misinformation campaign about the corona19 viral pandemic we are now in the midst of – the BEGINNING of according to the scientists and WHO, CDC and Dr.Anthony Fauci, our very top doctor and scientist who is TRYING to warn the government as well as us living here in America – CANNOT be allowed continue.

The GOP, Republicans or the Trumpacrats, whatever they are calling themselves these days, MUST take control of this man – their so-called “gift from God” and empirical leader – before he does any MORE damage, causes MORE deaths by continueing to speak his misinformation, lies, made up “alternate facts” and BAD advice he seems to HAVE to go live on TV to spread to the American people – SOME of whom actually BELIEVE what he is telling them.

In this specific case, the health, welfare and the REAL LIVES of Americans are being put in very serious jeopardy due to Trump’s visible, well-known inability to understand science, by him calling it all a “hoax” if it doesn’t line up with whatever he concocts in his head on any specific day and his continued denial to the people that this is as SERIOUS and can be DEADLY to so very many people here and around the world.

Let’s put Trump’s idiocracy aside and look at the Republican party that stands silently, firmly and stupidly in full support of Trump for SOME WEIRD UNKNOWN reasons – we all have our theories of the reasons that these politicians back him like he is God, My theory is that he and Bill Barr obtained Jeffrey Epstein’s “ledger of clientele”, with specific notes of names, dates, likes/dislikes in sexual desires before he was conveniently found dead in his cell. This dynamic duo, Trump & Barr, are holding this book over the heads of the entire male Republican Senators and Representative as a threat to “out” them all publically if they do not FULLY cooperate with EVERYTHING that our “president” and his personal attorney, AG Bill Barr, tell them to do or make them say, write, do or defend for Trump – even if it is illegal, immorral, unethical or just plain WRONG.

No matter WHAT Trump does, says or demands they quickly bow down to his wishes like little boys worshipping a superhero. I find it revolting to watch these men continually belittle themselves so radically and publically for a man who would throw them to the wolves given the opportunity. Yes, I truly believe (as do many others) that Trump and Barr are holding SOMETHING HUGBE over the Republicans, one day it will be brought out into the light and we will all understand, but NOT forgive them. The TRUTH always comes out in the end. Always. Perhaps it’s karma or maybe it’s just plain justice.

I have no proof of this “ledger” theory, the only way to prove it would be to demand to SEE that ledger and the other evidence gathered from Epstein’s properties, banks and other devious connections around the world. Doesn’t anyone else wonder where all of this stuff went? Where IS it NOW? Who has it and who has access to it? I would LOVE to KNOW the answers to these questions as well as others about Trump and Mr. Epstein’s relationship and connections – both personal, sexual, and financially. ALL aspects of their days of running together and abusing their privilege as very rich, famous highly protected men of power SHOULD be investigated and factually reported.

We KNOW they were close friends for decades and that they have BOTH been jointly charged with some very serious sexual crimes, such as rape and assault on children as young as 12 yrs. old more than once or twice! Yes, minor girls ARE still considered to be CHILDREN. It’s high time to shed some sunlight on this dark partnership, especially since it concerns us because this man, Trump, is our PRESIDENT. As his constituents, we all have a right to KNOW who Donald J. Trump REALLY is and WHAT he has done – good and bad – with his power throughout his life. He loves to dig up dirt on others but is highly secretive about himself, somehow believing that the rules don’t apply to him for some reason I don’t understand – does anyone?

This pandemic is a disaster. The biggest part of this disaster is our governments complete and utter failure in response and handling of information dissemination about the virus. Our federal government’s response has been very slow, disjointed, disappointing, confused and is turning more deadly with every passing day that the president and our federal government remain in this disjointed, confused and unorganized state. They are very unsure of WHAT to do, WHEN to do it and HOW to handle this properly, et. We do not have testing. We did not and still DO NOT have ANY PLAN for how our country will handle or deal with a health crisis of this magnitude. Our president blames his predecessor as he always does when he can’t find anything else to tell us. Trump FIRED the branch of our Homeland Security team that was specifically focused on infectious diseases, outbreaks, epidemics and pandemics should they, or when they, occur in America – and in the world. So, of course our government, who are supposed to be working for the good of all people in America, is nowhere near prepared or ready to protect us, prevent more infections, advise people properly and quickly, provide accurate tests, provide the right number of tests, handle the coming medical care crisis looming in our future due to Coronavirus19. Let’s HOPE that we are not going to be stuck in this predicament until many more die and someone in another country find a cure and saves the world. It’s certainly NOT going to be America. We lost that opportunity when Trump fired the scientists and doctors who were preparing for scenarios like this one we are now contending with now in our lives.

We need very aggressive testing, we need the feds to get out of the way and let the highly skilled, knowledgable, researchers, laboratories, scientists and doctors and all of those with the abilities help us through this mess. Individual states and state leaderships are working overtime to do the job that the federal government and our president FAILED to do or be ready for as they should have been. The federal government must give them the money and resources to do their job and find a vaccine that will work in the most timely manner possible. And we KNOW that this will take 12-18 months minimum, maybe longer.

In the meantime, we the people must unify and try to deal with these infections with whatever we can to minimize the virus’s effects and prevent as many deaths as we can until there is a vaccine. Trump and our federal government representation FAILED us as Americans. We are now basically going to have to figure out what is “true” and what is “false or fake” information and share that widely among ourselves through whatever means works – emails, social media like Facebook, instagram, Youtube, Google and any others out there.

We must take care of ourselves -it’s been thrown completely upon us to do so – and be aware of all of those around us, specifically reaching out to those at the highest risk and making sure they understand how to keep themselves as safe as possible, what to do if they feel sick, and also help each other as much as we can with whatever we need. Things are going to get tight. It’s not going to be a family picnic by any means.

This is serious and important and we must be fully aware and properly informed about our personal and family risk factors. Then we each have to make decisions of how to prepare ourselves and our families in the case that one or more in our individual households or living quarters become sick. There really is no other option now.

Our government dropped the proverbial ball, Trump fired the entire department that used to keep us aware and protected from these kinds of things, like SARS and Ebola in the past, and we are now screwed into handling this the best way we can, which will be by unifying, coming together to help each other through this and to take care of those who do get sick as best we are able to do with what little information or support we may have or get from others in China, S. Korea and Italy about how to stop the spread, protect ourselves and others, treat patients that are sick, take care of those who need help getting through this themselves and continue to SCREAM at the president and our government for eliminating the office that was specifically supposed to be protecting us to begin with!

Trump said tonight on live TV that he “takes no responsibility” for eliminating this group of dedicated people who were protecting us. He even called the question about why he did it “a sick question” and you could see him visibly cringe that it had been brought up in the news conference. He now claims that he didn’t even know about it, that someone else did it. He is a LIAR. He said we didn’t “need” that group and eliminated it to get more money for his stupid border wall and to line his family’s pockets. His ignorance and GREED stink like a dead skunk.

Just remember, if anyone in YOUR family becomes sick or dies due to Corvid19 you can thank Donald J. Trump, God of Republicans and personally acclaimed perfect purveyor of hate, knower of ALL – or so he also claims. HE is directly responsible for the disasterous delay and non-existant reliable response to this nasty pandemic – which he was informed and KNEW about way back at the beginning of January 2020….but he said it was a democratic hoax to hurt his bid for reelection – all he really cares about is money, power and how things make him “look” to other world leaders. He believes he is some kind of king and can do no wrong in the eyes of the rich, famous, dictators and autocratic leaders we all know of and are not fans of due to their barbaric treatment of their own people. He’s emulating them. Right down to perhaps allowing many die for his egotistical stance.

In the end my biggest unanswered question is WHY do Republicans continue to protect this man, who is obviously NOT concerned about this virus except that the “numbers” are hurting “his stockmarket” and he takes NO responsibility and has NO PLAN and NO ANSWERS for why we have no test kits, where the test kits are, who is making them, who will get them, and WHEN they will REALLY BE AVAILABLE to ALL providers that NEED them – hospitals, doctors, community partners, etc.

Republicans need to get real with themselves and their constituents and FIRE Trump, ignore his idiotic statements, bad information and lies, and find a new leader that can restore some of the dignity to their party – and our country. Oh wait…only a Democrat will be able to do that, the GOP has no need for dignity and ethics anymore. Those are characteristics of Democrats and Independents in America now. Good luck GOPers…keep believing the lies, we can write your epitaphs accordingly.

Protect yourself and your loved ones. Check in on your neighbors. Perhaps even create a neighborhood care plan so that everyone is checked on during this trying time, especially those who live alone and are in the higher risk groups for infection with this icky virus. It could bring you new friends even!

My next blog will be HOW to have some fun while being vigilant and caring during this health crisis.

In the meantime, wash your hands, cover your mouth when you cough or sneeze and stay the fuck home if you are even a little sick!!! Do it for you. Do it for your elderly Granpa or Nana. Just be smart.

Wishing you ALL good health!!!

~MB

March Arrives

“Ten years from now make sure you can say that you chose your life, you didn’t just settle for it.”

I’ve been struggling like a bitch with the quitting smoking thing, I made it 4 days and caved in. I got more of the 21mg patches and am going to start again tomorrow morning, putting a patch on immediately when I wake up. I HAVE to do this. I know all the reasons, it’s just the determination to just do it that I am lacking. I’m going to try to phyche myself into it tonight with hypnosis meditations and internal pep talks. Yup, this MUST happen.

Watching the news scares the fuck out of me lately. Ever since the GOP acquitted Trump it’s been a free-for-all in DC. He’s doing everything and anything he wants with our government and our DOJ, and our country. It’s sickening and it should alarm EVERY person living in America and many abroad as well. He’s going to make a play to take over, watch. He will try to turn this country into an autocracy, naming himself supreme leader for life. He’s half way there already.

We are about to pay for his ignorance and bravado with this corvid19 crap. He fired the top scientists in our government shortly after he was elected, then the rest quit in protest. He closed entire labratories. And he’s gutted the CDC and put an idiot in charge of HHS. Anthony Fauci is the only good thing going for us there. Hopefully people will read between the Trumpisms and understand that this is serious and could kill many people, mostly the elderly and immune compromised in this country. Heh, the older population are mostly Trumpers, he’s going to lose some of his base! He has NO plan for this, he’s leading us with lies. We will pay. The only hope we have to curb this spread of this is to be smart ourselves, listen, take action as needed and be aware.

The Democratic run off here is pretty wild. What I am seeing is the Democratic party splitting into two camps. The younger, more progressive Sanders supporters. And the middle-aged, more conservative Biden people. It’s confusing. Somehow we need to blend the two groups, cooperate and compromise to remove Trump from office. We can do it, but only if we come together and unite under one party, the Democratic party. The GOP is about to be fully exposed as completely corrupt, lying bastards when this epidemic takes a good footing in the USA. That will be so interesting to watch them all fumble words on TV.

Elizabeth Warren dropping out of this race was super disappointing to me. My heart sank and a little piece of the hopeful vision I have for the future of America died right then and there. We came so close. This article puts it into excellent words in the first 2 paragraphs. Personally I cannot describe how it felt to see another woman get so close to leading this country and falter due to patriarchal rule.

Last night I caught a really great documentary about Boudica, a Celtic leader and super warrior. It’s a tale of men abusing women, the Roman soliers beat her and then take her two daughters away and raped them. In retaliation Boudica and her entire Celtic tribe attacked the advancing Romans and a great battle ensued. It is a super cool story, check it out on line. I get seriously engrossed in those stories of Amazon warriors, Celtic Vikings and any woman leader, even Nephritis! They are all great examples of strong, fierce woman warriors in our history on this planet. If I ever get into cosplay it would definitely be as a Viking!

I’ve been getting really stuck on the documentary channels lately. Science channel, History channel, etc. It’s so intriguing some of what they investigate or excavate. From Nazi bunkers to the deepest caves on Greenland that you could ever imagine – I never KNEW there were things like THAT on this planet! And Greenland has tons and tons of these caverns and caves that are unbelievable. I’ve watched shows on Sir Frances Drake, Butch Cassidy, Robin Hood, Hitler, Mousellini, and others. So interesting and entertaining too. It’s also far better for my brain then news channels.

It was a gorgeous weekend here. We are having a super early Spring this year, I know it’s due to global warming and climate change, but in a way it’s nice…for now, but not in the long run. Bulbs are starting to peek through the ground and all of the seasonal birds are returning. I’ve started Spring cleaning outdoors, raking and pruning. Preparing my garden early is really going to make them nice! I have clones coming from Ft. Kent in a couple of weeks to get hardened up and ready to go up back. Planning on a great summer!

Have I mentioned the cat that moved itself into my house? I call her Frankie, after Frankie and Grace. She’s a beautiful tiger cat, short haired and a pretty big cat. She was straying around the neighborhood for a few weeks with various other people feeding her. I fed her once and then when I opened my back door she ran inside and refuses to leave. It’s been about a month now. She’s quite at home.

Happy National Women’s Day. It’s also Women’s History month. Remember, 100 years ago women didn’t have the right to vote. We do. Vote.

Peace ~ MB

“I don’t have an answer for that…”

Great reply to a hard or difficult question.

So…this may come across pretty comically, but I am stoned and watching “90 Day Fiance, Before the 90 days”… this just may be the most entertaining, people watching, voyeruism type show around. It’s hilarious, sometimes relatable, and just absurd in some spots. It’s couples, including a lesbian couple, of various types, mixes, etc WATCHING the 2 people doing the “90 Day Fiance” filming and they are CUTTING UP over the shit that goes on…women – and men – trying to get Americans to marry them pretty much just for citizenship and an entry into our country – obviously something each one of them CANNOT do or get on their own merits. Sorta silly, senseless, stupid, with a hint of doom coming…of course they’re all being set up by these foreigners who they ALL met ONLINE through Instagram’s Direct Messager…oh, yeah and one guy “can’t factime or send a video because his camera on his phone is broke.”

He’s supposed to be employed as the manager of a high-end restaurant in Manchester, England….yeah….he can’t afford a fucking replacement phone???? If my phone broke I would do whatever I had to to get it replaced as soon as I could. It’s my link to life outside the 4 walls of my home. My immediate link to my family, to professional associates, to friends and acquaintances. Every appointment, note and a lot of the “need-to-know” kind of info is in the phone I carry on my person, or in the cloud linked to my phone – hell, I actually have a backup cloud for my cloud! With as much security as I could determine was worth the cost, cuz we all know nothing is impenetrable. Ever.

Anyway, the best part of this show is the commentary and alternative narration being hilariously presented by the couples – all sitting in their respective beds – who are watching these idiots hook up with these greencard gurus from abroad. Hey, maybe this has other episodes with the same type of hook up with people in the same country, but this episode is focused – it seems to be anyway – on foreigners cohercing Americans, by conviincing them they love them, oft times sight-unseen….yeah..

I have this rule myself…oh I have a LOT of fucking and fucked up type RULES that govern me…at times anyway. Like when it’s fucking convenient, you know…I’m sure. So, if I am interested in a woman I will ask her to video chat (whatever platform). If she refuses the first time I will back off and approach it again at another time later on if I am still interested by then. Then, if she will absolutely NOT video chat, just to say hello maybe over a coffee or ice tea, whatever the reason I come up with at the time, then no deal. I will not pursue anything any longer. Women who do that are not real, are telling you lies and setting you up – for something, but setting you up for sure!

Here’s a rather funny story from my own life’s adventure files as a prime example of why video meetings are vitally important in getting to know someone via the internet and modern technology. I think you’ll all find this funny as fuck……So….I made the mistake ONE time of disregarding this video chat rule and accepted a phone call instead. It represents the ONLY time I have ever in my life BOLTED from a woman’s house, making an excuse to go to my truck to get something, threw the key in the ignition and got the fuck out of there right quick. Nope, the photo must have been her but oh…maybe 45 years earlier, or maybe it was her younger sister. Whatever it wasn’t who I was looking at, which was someone that had seriously misrepresented themselves to me (LIES) so I didn’t really feel that bad leaving her in the dust like I did. I wouldn’t have touched her with my worst enemy’s hands! Fuck no. Not my type told me she was femme, but the person I met was more Butch than ME – and that’s kinda saying something if you know me at all.

The moral of the story is simple. Video chat, converse and learn about each other and before diving too deep. Safer or sorrier, not sure which nowadays.

I wouldn’t accept avoiding behavior, I actually recognize it really, really quickly in people. It’s been my demise in some things in my past and anyone who practices that kind of behavior with me always turns out to be toxic as fuck. Hiding shit or distorting stuff only works for so long in my opinion.

I can’t cope with that avoiding kind of behavior, and I tend to be able to recognize it really, really quickly in people. Sly, sneaky, evasive, like not answering direct questions, etc…it’s a turn off and not well worn by most good women. When the mask falls for them it’s never pretty. Makes me pretty relieved that all that shit is behind me in this life….freedom from any pressure what-so-ever in that department.

Watching this show is funny, but it DOES make you think and it’s made me recall several conversations I’ve had with various kinds of different women online, and yeah, I’ve met a couple of these foreign Jezzabelle’s for sure. They’re fun to fuck with, bait them on a bit and then disrobe them in one fell swoop, then watch how fast they deactivate accounts or block you to death…Ohhhh…… Don’t get me telling tales….hahahaha….damn, I got some fucking funny shit stored up in my noggin. Actually I have found that the older you get the more hilarious your inner child becomes, I swear. I even see this in my friends lots lately and I know that mine is very lively these last couple of weeks. Could be the phase of the moon, Mercury in retrograde, deadmen on ghost ships, or the smell of Spring in the ocean air around here…whatever…or maybe it’s just good old fashioned Med changes doing wonders. Gotta love that modern medicine chest.

Our hike today was awesome. I’m going to drop some pics here and on my Facebook for those who follow me there. It’s easier to upload there than to get them into the WP platform with a Chromebook with stuff stored out in clouds now it makes it more difficult to drag and drop, or grab from a local file like I used to on my regular laptop in the past.

The day was quite beautiful. Sunshine from sunup to sundown. Blue skies, fluffy clouds and the promise of Spring soon This is the mildest winter we just went through. Actually, I have never seen a winter this warm or with less snow. It’s both a blessing and a curse as we all know. Of course we all love a mild winter for obvious reasons of expense – more oil for heat, more $$ shelled out to plow owners, the inconvenience of being snowed in, having to spend the day reading or relaxing in whatever way gets you there. ({yeah, like THAT is inconvenient…not with right company it’s not))…But we all know WHY our winters are warming, our polar ice caps are disappearing and world leaders tell us it’s a hoax perpetuated by the left-leaning, kind, caring and concerned Democrats. They are so scared of losing a thin dime they’ll lie to God at this point.

Tuesday, 3-3-2020

I slept so hard last night, being a little stoned helped tremendously. The last few nights I’ve had to use either melatonin or a piece of a special gummy to get myself to sleep. I deal with insomnia quite frequently and yeah it sucks sometimes and then other times I use the awake time to write or do tasks I didn’t get done during the day. It all works out in the scheme of things.

Yesterday was Super Tuesday. Looks like Biden may be our nominee. He and Bernie are pretty much neck-to-neck in this race. Whichever one it ends up being we all need to come together and rally behind our candidate so we have success in November 2020! AND whoever it ends up being, they must choose a woman as their running mate, no question about that. Women have been so essential in all of the pushback on the current administration and leaders in the fights to return security, sensibility and integrity to our federal governmental institutions. From Marie Yoyanovich to Elizabeth Warren and AOC, women have endured horrendous treatment – often as an afterthought, 2nd class citizen or a nuisance to Trump and his crew, so yes, the ticket needs a woman and I for one will push for that to happen.

Ok, it’s friggin Thursday and I want blog about another subject…so closing this out, having issues with uploading pics right now, I’ll add them later. Maybe drag them from Instagram? I’m so confused….

Peace~ MB