A mid-May Tuesday afternoon…I’m sitting here feeling really mellow and accomplished for the moment. Yeah, I find myself in a really good place in life right now. And I am dong all I can do to keep it this way for the long-term. My attitude has definitely improved, as well as my outlook on life in general. So much has happened in the past year, it’s difficult to put a finger on exactly when all this change started for me; I know that having Bones in my life has been the biggest enhancement for sure. She’s the biggest reason I keep a nice comfortable smile on my face every day. I like that – a LOT.
I’ve been struggling with writing lately. What happens is that I get watching and listening to news pundits and my brain goes crazy trying to take in all that is happening in my country; with my government. It’s just insanity. Anyone who is trying to keep up with the daily tweet storms from the idiot in the White House is probably a bit stresses like me. I’m an activist, it’s in my bones. And I cannot just ignore what is happening; the destruction and degradation of the United States being done by one man and one party – the GOP. Plus, ignoring what’s happening is not going to help move us toward any solutions, we all must continue to keep abreast of this “situation” and stay well informed so that we can speak out and stand up to his bullying ways.
I don’t care to spend this whole blog talking about his dumbass tonight. I’d rather discuss other things, but I just wanted to remind you all that it’s all-fucked-up here in the USA right now, and it’s affecting everyone – even if they deny it. Nothing is right. Nothing is safe. Every one and everything is being changed…and not for the good.
Work has been going great! I complain a bit to my girl about my job sometimes; about a particular person I don’t like working with, but for the most part I really enjoy getting up at 5am every morning (except Wednesdays) and going in to work. The truck stop is a really bustling place, with people from all over stopping in to fuel up their 18 wheelers, or their RV’s and cars. We are also a full gas station, convenience store, and take-out bistro. The place has shower facilities for those looking to freshen up from their long travels. Yes, it’s busy. We sell about 380 cups of coffee every morning…yep, 380….that’s a lot of fucking coffee! 🙂 Thankfully the coffee bar is self-serve!
I run into many of my local friends who come in to the store to pick up incidentals, fill their cars with gas, or get a pizza for dinner. It’s nice, I can chat for a few minutes, get the gist of the local news from their end of town, and not have to visit overly long as I have to get back to my job. I’ve been there 2 1/2 years now and I have no current plans to leave there any time soon. Last week I actually scored a bonus from one of our product reps for doing a good job pushing their product line. That was nice for my checking account! And it felt great to be recognized for the work that I do there. I know I only work part time, but I give it my all when I am there. I am dependable, reliable, courteous, and friendly with the clientele. It’s not rocket science work, but it’s steady and keeps me occupied part of every week day. Working part time fits me well. My back is sore – that’s a given – but I can deal with it. And my co-workers know my lifting limits due to my back condition, so it’s not a problem. Once in a while I try to work 3/4 or a full shift, but my back starts to really get back around hour 5, so I try to stick to my 4 hour days for health reasons. Also, working early mornings gives me the whole rest of the day to deal with medical appointments, home maintenance, housekeeping, the dogs, and my gardens and other responsibilities. Oh…and especially time to see my Mom at least once a week for a few hours! So, yeah, work is good. No complaints!
My girlfriend visited again at the beginning of the month, I may have mentioned that in a previous blog…hmmm…yes, I did. I wrote about what we did. Anyway, I miss her terribly in between her visits. We speak on the phone a few times a day, and are in touch via text and messenger. We Skype a couple of times a week – which I really love to do and look forward to doing. Modern technology makes a long distance relationship (LDR) much easier. Before cell phones and computers I would never have thought about dating a woman who lives in Texas! And we are both very well established in our respective homes, so neither of us is moving any time soon. We will keep doing the LDR thing, keep having visits, and make it work. She’s stolen my heart…something I never thought could happen again like it did with her. She’s magic to my soul. And she makes me incredibly proud, happy and enthusiastic about life! She’s also very low maintenance to me, she doesn’t give me a hard time about anything (except maybe smoking, even then she hasn’t been too bad…but I KNOW I should quit) and makes it really easy for me to be with her. I try to reciprocate those same things to her. I just want to be a really good influence, a good lover, and a happy part of her life. As long as we are those things to each other then we’ll stay together as we are now.
So, Bone, my girlfriend, is returning to Maine in mid-July for a month!!! YES!!! A MONTH! I am really stoked for this upcoming extended stay! She’s bringing her daughter with her. Babycakes is 3 yrs. old and just a beautiful child. She has challenges, but she lights up the room, and I love her to pieces – it helps that I am mad for her Mom! I set up my spare room to accommodate the little girl, and before they arrive I am planning to paint that room and then Bones can decorate it as she likes when they are here. Right now the room has a queen size bed, a dresser, desk and night stand. I may have to remove the desk to give her a little more room in there. We’ll see! It’s all so exciting! I have not lived with anyone in years, and not that we are going to be “living” together, but her being here a month is pretty damned close!
I have need for my own “space” sometimes. I get into moods where I just want to be left alone to do whatever it is that I feel like doing. Bones seems to be kind of the same, she needs her alone time too. So, it’s good that I have the 2 bedrooms, and the back room that used to be my office is now another sitting room. I call it the “Zen Room”. I put a couch and coffee table in there and some plants and cool stuff on the walls, so it looks nice and is a really relaxing space. We have plenty of room to do as we please. Damn…I am so fucking lucky.
While Bones and Babycakes are here it will be the dead of summer, hot and humid I am sure. My parents’ have a great in-ground swimming pool, which we will be taking full advantage of using! It’s out away from their house, so we don’t even have to bother them if we go over and hang out around the pool. There’s a pool house, bathroom, changing room and recreation area with outdoor games, too. I’m anticipating a lot of great water fun with Babycakes, who really loves the water! And I’m sure my parents will have some poolside parties, BBQ’s and the such while they are here. I’m looking forward to all of that, and to showing my girl off a little. (I’m bad, I know! haha!)
I’m also planning a trip up to North Conway NH to do some camping and to kayak a 7 mile stretch of the Saco River up there. My siblings usually go several times during the summer, so I imagine we will tag along with some of them one weekend. My youngest brother already has his 40′ RV set up at a campsite up there, so we have a sort of “base station” with that, from which we can go anywhere. And there’s plenty of room on the site to either pitch a tent, or we’ll get a couple of bunks in the RV if they’re not all full. The thing sleeps 8 people! It’s crazy cool. I borrowed it once to live up at the fair grounds while I was working an 11 day fair in Massachusetts a few years ago, made me want a small one of my own. Maybe someday I’ll get more serious about that desire and look into doing it. Wouldn’t travelling around with an RV be so wicked pissah cool!?
I can just picture myself doing something just like that: travelling coast to coast in an RV with my dogs. I don’t know if I would sell everything big that I owned and do it, or if I would make it sort of a seasonal excursion. That’s a chapter of life that’s yet to be written, but it’s on my list of things I would like to do! I should do a new vision board…and that is something that I should put on it for sure. Perhaps I will do that while it’s raining this coming weekend!
I’ve planted my flower gardens, as I do every year. Those who have followed me, or who personally know me, know that I love to garden. I like to put in new perennial flowers and plants. I moved into this house near the beginning of December 2015, so like 2 1/2 yrs now…this is the 3rd summer here at this place. The gardens were kind of pre-established when I got the place, and the only “new” one is the veggie garden out back that me and Charlie have (Charlie’s my neighbor who’s house is behind mine). Charlie also has a MEGA garden tilled up on the top of the hill behind his house, it’ plateau’s and he tilled up a great big rectangular area where we are going to locate all of the vining plants, like squash and pumpkins, watermelon and some cucumbers. Charlie also likes to plant gardens of cutting flowers, so he’s putting things that flower in among the veggies too. Today I picked up some small starter plants from Walmart’s selection, which was on sale even. I got: cucumbers, summer squash, watermelon, pumpkins, green peppers, red peppers (both the sweet style), jalepeno peppers, basil, lavender, and rosemary. I think that’s the whole list…did that from memory as the plants are still in the back of my car, where they will remain until tomorrow. It’s raining outside currently, and has been on and off all afternoon, so I am planning to get them out of the car and into the ground in the morning.
Speaking of morning….tomorrow is the “day” for Lulu. Yep, she’s going to get spayed. She’s over 3 yrs old now (turned 3 on Feb 17th) and it’s time. I also will not miss taking extra care of her during her heats. She would get puffy and sore, and she would cling to me even MORE than she already does! Wanted her belly rubbed constantly. (Like any woman…LMAO) And she needed baths every few days during her 2 weeks of misery. That’s supposed to happen again in June…so I am pre-empting this show…cancelled due to lack of interest, and the star has to have some downtime….LMAO….I wonder if she will lose interest in her “humpy dog” stuffed animal that she seems so sexually attracted to during her cycle? Hahaha…it’s funny as hell, and while I DO have a short video of it -BECAUSE it’s so friggin FUNNY! – I am not going to post it here. I’ll spare you the Lulu show! Haha. And for anyone who is now wondering…YES, female dogs DO hump! I have had several and every one of them was caught doing it at some point. Some are sneakier than others – I had one that would hide and hump – while some, like Lu, have no shame. Hey, they’re mammals, it’s natural! (Ok, I’m laughing to myself here….)
I picked up a couple of new coloring books a few weeks back and they’ve been laying here on my table ever since. I’m thinking that I may do some quiet coloring – maybe with a nice soft background music from Alexa – after I am done with my blogging, reading and watching the final episode of The Middle. (Yep, I’m a known sit-com junkie…haha) I’m feeling great; very laid back and relaxed. As long as I don’t tune into CNN or MSNBC I’ll be super til morning! So, after sitcom’s are over I am turning the TV off for the night. I downloaded a sleep sounds app and am going to try out. Maybe something in the list will inspire me in some way.
I had a couple of major health check-ups over the last month. I’m doing excellent still. My T-cells are 970 and my VL is >30. It even showing could be just a blip from the time or the day it was drawn. I’m damned lucky and damned healthy! I also met with the kidney specialist, we’re doing more testing on what’s going on there. There are signals that my kidneys are diseased and/or weakening. So, I’m drinking lots of water and waiting for my next appointment. This particular doctor is very had to get in to see, she’s top notch and her services are in high demand, so I’m willing to wait. I will see her later June again. And I’m having testing on my liver done (a scan) first week of June, meeting the doctor on that one the following week. If that scan goes well, which I’m sure it will, I’ll be starting on the Harvoni – an 8-12 week treatment – soon as I am able. I’ve been dragging my feet on this drug for years. The only treatment prior to this was by injection…and being a recovering junkie playing with needles isn’t something I should ever be doing. Even with the animals it bothers me to use the syringe. Gives me the willies.
Tomorrow I’ll be getting up a bit early, so I can get Lu ready for her trip to the vet. I’m going to finish this up here. I hope you all are doing well, staying healthy as possible and happy as permissible. Haha…
Peace ~ MB
“What can’t be cured, must be endured.”