So I wrote this long and very cool blog post yesturday…wordpress used to auto save your drafts, what happened to that feature??? I am going to attempt to recreate it today…ugh….I wanna scream!!! ( A very Butch scream that is.)
I find myself sleepless tonight; restless and irritated from within for some reason. Perhaps it’s my new schedule from just getting back to work 4 days a week. My mind just seems full of things that are needing to be done, and I feel the list just growing. Generally I can re-settle myself when I awake in the middle of the night, but tonight I just cannot seem to find that peace that precedes the passage into a nice slumber. When I did sleep earlier, I dreamed of being lost and not having my cell phone and not understanding which direction to go in to get back to where I needed to be….I understand the meaning of the dream, and it’s true…I am pushing myself to get back to where I need to be; to find that inner peace again and to have love within arms reach. Funny how dreams can do that kind of stuff with your sub-conscious thoughts.
Being back in the working world is feeling really good. My spirits are higher, and I look forward to getting out each morning, then getting home in the mid-afternoon hours. I’m only working a 4 hour shift, but after so long being idle; without work, I am having an adjustment period. The drives to and from work are the best part, I love seeing all of the Spring growth, the flowers blooming and trees budding. And it’s fun to pass all of the landmarks, the parks, various businesses, new businesses that I hadn’t noticed before, and just to be driving through the world with a destination.
When I return home little Nola about turns herself inside out with complete and utter joy of seeing me. It’s like I had been gone for a week after only 5 hours! She wiggles and yips, with a mouthful of one of her stuffed toys, which she offers to whoever comes in the door as a sort of welcoming gift – although you cannot TOUCH the gift, you must just admire it and pet the dog! Oh..and thank her for it of course! She’s so sweet, and so devoted to me. I just don’t know what I would ever do without the little bugger. She brings such peace and joy to my heart. And she epitomizes the very meaning of “unconditional love” for me.
So I am sure I will settle into a routine here with work and my home projects and chores. I just have to be patient with myself and the world, and let things ease into a regular pattern. AT this point I rise at about 6:30am generally, and get Jared at 6:50am from his house two doors down. He comes here in the mornings when his sisters go to school, we have breakfast, him cereal and me coffee. Then we watch Clifford the Big Red Dog and Curious George morning shows on MPBN and NHPTV networks. At 7:55am we put on our shoes, coats when needed, and head down to the bus stop at the back entrance to our neighborhood. Nola LOVES to go with us, and is often the best alarm as to when it’s time to go. She will begin to prance around and yap, like “hey, it’s time for a walk! The bus is coming soon!” The three of us have a nice 5 minute walk to the bus stop and await the arrival of the big yellow school bus to whisk Jared off to his Kindergarten classroom. Yes, it’s pretty regimented every morning Monday through Friday. I then walk home with Nola and we have some more coffee, Nola eats her breakfast and I watch the morning news and weather while puttering around the house doing mundane – but necessary – house chores. At 9am I shower and dress, pull my stuff together and kiss Nola good-bye as she glares at me from the back of the couch. She doesn’t like that part – me leaving that is! But she’s good and she seems to know that I am leaving and she can’t go along on those trips out. Yes, we will settle into a routine, I am sure of it.
I am anxious to do more work on my yard and gardens. Hopefully the Mantis tiller I dropped off to Evan at the machine shop will be repaired and ready for this weekend. It would just be so much easier to use that than to kill myself doing it by hand! I mounted 3 more railing boxes along the porch railings, in the best spots for mostly sun all day, this afternoon after work. Now i just need to fill them with potting soil and get some pretty flowering plants to fill them with this weekend. I also picked up 3 more large round pots today from Mom and may use those to plant some of the morning glories in, then set them in between the railing bays of the porch and train the plants to trail along the lattice work of the porch. I love gardening. I may not be an expert at it, but I give it one hell of a college try. I read, research, study and think about every thing I am planing and doing out there. Right now I am anxiously awaiting the sprouting of the grass seed that I planted 2 weeks ago during the drought. It rained 4.79 inches on Monday…thus the ground is now very saturated and I am expecting with a little more sunshine and warm weather that the seed will germinate and if I carefully fertilize and care for it then I should have a nice lawn by later this summer. The dirt I am working with to plant in is pretty gravelly and sandy, but I’m trying to make the best of it and have used a good Scott’s Starter Fertilizer already along with the seed. Hell, the dandelions are coming in prolifically! THOSE must GO. I am going to pull alot of them with the weed puller – it’s important to get the whole long root on those or they just re-grow, and I am also going to get some weed killer for them. I would like a nice lush carpet of GRASS, not just a green spot of various weeds!
I also picked up a cute little old wooden wheel barrow that I am going to make into a planter for the front lawn. It’s going to be very cute when finished! Perhaps this weekend I will have the money for the plants for that as well. Getting started with your gardens, lawns, and planters is the expensive part! I try to pick a lot of perennial plants, so they will come up year after year and cut the cost in the future. I’ve also got Nasturtium seeds and Morning Glory seeds germinating under wet paper towels in the house that will go into some of the planters I mentioned earlier. Both will re-seed themselves to a large degree.