Once again I am awakened at 2am, just am not meant to sleep like a normal person should right now. I wake up and I am just…up…no going back to sleep in the immediate future.
I had a really great conversation with a great woman that I have been talking to lately. It wasn’t an easy chat at all, but it was good for both of us I believe. I confided in her a good bit about my addiction history, and she didn’t go running away like a scared cat. Addiction is not an easy topic to navigate and I admire her for her inquisitiveness on the topic, as it is a big part of who I am and why I am. I look forward to more conversations with her, about everything. She is someone I very much want to keep in my life. 🙂
Today was a bit hectic, but seriously productive. I worked til 1pm and then got together with my best friend and went to do our Friday afternoon errands around town. Every Friday we have a ritual of doing this. It’s called living paycheck to paycheck. We get paid, go out and pay our bills, do the shopping for our respective households and take care of whatever else needs doing in town. It is a struggle sometimes, but I make it work somehow. And I realize that there are millions of others who are making it work this way as well. It’s not easy in today’s economy or job market to do it any other way – especially if you don’t have a college education to fall back on, which I don’t. Sometimes it feels likeI am always trying to play catch up on things, but hey, that’s just how it is. I do alright.
I visited Trader Joe’s grocery this afternoon, I love that place! I actually requested an employment application when I was checking out, and the woman who checked me out told me it was a super great place to work. Everyone in there seems pretty pleasant and happy to be there, so they must enjoy the job. I love the diversity of people in the place, from old hippies, to housewives, to young dykes, it’s just a palate of different people. They must have a really good company equality policy. I am going to research the company a bit just to be sure that I would be a good fit there.
I also visited Staples office supply store on my excursion about town. I needed a ream of copy paper. They had a really good deal on some excellent quality paper that I had to take advantage of! That is another place I could picture myself working. Although a bit more “stuffy” than Trader Joe’s eclectic atmosphere, it would be fun. I was in the corporate business world for many years and used to frequent the place quite a bit for supplies for my company. I imagine working with people who were doing the same thing would be right up my alley in skill sets. And being the techno nerd that I am, I can imagine I would probably reinvest in the company and that might not be a good idea! I’d be buying stuff like crazy.
Meanwhile, in Trumpy-land the Twitterverse is running wild with Trumpy stuff. This Russian connection thing is really getting out of hand, Jeff Sessions needs to resign and a full investigation needs to ensue. It just has to happen to put this subject into some sort of understandable terms. I was Tweeting with a friend in Texas who is petrified right now. Being our age and queer isn’t going to be an easy path under Trump as he keeps going along with ripping away our rights and equalities. It’s also just plain scary as an American, not withstanding being a part of the LGBTQ community! Everyone seems to feel the impending doom of being attacked in some way by all of the executive orders and wild things that Trump and his team are doing or proposing to do. I know I’m fucking scared.
Living in Maine has some pretty unique advantages. Where I live especially because geographically it’s a great spot. Right between Boston Mass, and Portland Maine. I can be at the beach in 5 minutes, in the White Mountains in less than an hour and to either of the two cities in about 45 minutes. Geographically it’s fucking perfection. Maine also has a good equality rating. I just read an article in the Bangor Daily News about Maine being at the top when it comes to gender equality. We also have good protections for the LGBTQ citizens here too. I am glad that I live in this type of state. From personal experience I can say that there IS really good gender equality. Maine women are a fierce and tough lot. Especially those from “down” Maine, which is actually upstate Maine…it’s a Maine thing…those women are hardened by the lifestyle of living in a very rural state, where you have to be fairly tough to survive. I live in the more populated area, it’s a bit easier to navigate life here, but my cousins are down Mainers’ and they are not to be messed with. The women are equal to the men up there in so many ways, they do equal work and expect equal pay. And truth be known, I believe they run the whole fucking show! I have a healthy respect for my down Maine women cousins. They take no prisoners.
I hope your weekend is a great one! Signing off from southern Maine….Peace! ~MB