BREAKING: Trump pulls health care bill!

It’s just after 4pm here on the east coast of the US, and Trump has told Paul Ryan to “pull the health care bill.”  He doesn’t want it to go to a full vote because he knows it will LOSE and the Old Orange One cannot stand to lose anything.  Here is his first big piece of legislation and he can’t even play by the rules.  I wish they had let it go to vote and killed it outright, that would have been the best, but I am glad that it’s a dead issue anyway.

Paul Ryan is about to speak live from the Capital and then Trumpy is suppose to be addressing the nation live from the Oval Office after that.  I am SURE they will spin that that it is somehow “not their fault” and the evil Democrats will pay for this.  He just can’t take it when negotiations don’t go his way, he’s even got his Republican buddies calling him “The Negotiator” now…well it didn’t work did it asshole?!

I am happy that ObamaCare will stand.  Sure, it could be improved, but overall it’s far, far better than what Trump and the Republicans were trying to shove down our throats.

Peace!  ~MB


Trumpy Tweets Nuclear Policy Change

Trump and his Tweets!  When a US president, or in this case a president-elect, speaks the whole world listens.  Yesterday he basically blew 40 years of nuclear policy work out of the fucking water by tweeting

Donald J. Trump@realDonaldTrump 19h19 hours ago

The United States must greatly strengthen and expand its nuclear capability until such time as the world comes to its senses regarding nukes

This is just insanity at it’s worst.  Calling for the proliferation of nuclear weapons?  WHO DOES THAT?  Especially in today’s volatile world.

I was in the Army from 1980-86 and I was unfortunately cleared to serve in nuclear missle units during my entire service.  I was in the motor pool, working on the trucks and tanks that moved the missles or troops when necessary. I had some first hand experience of living around live nuclear warheads, and let me tell you it’s fucking scary as hell.

The first unit I served with held Nike Hercules missiels – ICBM’s (Intercontinental Ballistic Missiles) – which are the first arm of the “nuclear triad”.  These are generally pre-designated destination missiles.  I remember clearly that the warheads were affectionately painted by the missile monkeys with the names of Russian cities on them.  Nice, huh?  Doesn’t anyone remember Hiroshima?  Nagasaki?  Millions of people turned to dust in a split second?  Millions of other living lives maimed and crippled by nuclear fallout – and still those areas are wastelands of nuclear fallout and death.  Nuclear war is nothing to joke about, it’s a very serious issue.

The US policy the last 40 years has been to reduce the nuclear arsenals of the world, our own included.  Not to “..greatly strengthen and expand…” it as Trump suggests he will do when in office.  And to announce this to the world, what a fucking bone head this guy really is.  Of course Russias response was to immediately call for their own country to do the exact same, build a bigger arsenal and also proclaim that THEY are the world’s #1 nuclear super power and no one will threaten them because of it.  Of course, Putin, you are as big a fucking bone head as Trumpy.

When I returned the the continental US after serving in the Nike Herc unit in Germany, I was stationed with a Lance missile unit in Oklahoma.  Lance were MLRS missiles, Multiple Launch Rocket Sytems and were mounted on tanks that held like 12-16 of them at a time.  They could be launched on the move, and generally were surface to air, or surface to surface.  And they were deadly accurate.  We would launch dummies from New Mexico and hit targets in Nevada within a 10 meters of dead center.  Scary.  The first time I witnessed the launching of these monsters at White Sands Missile Range in New Mexico I just about shit my pants.  They were powerful and deadly for sure.

So, it’s a dangerous game idiot Trumpy is playing spouting off shit about nuclear proliferation like that.  We have a global nuclear non-proliferation policy for a reason.  Nuclear war ends everything permanently and cannot be reversed.  It’s total devastation and you can’t just rebuild it after the fact, like you sometimes can with conventional warfare.

This guy has chosen to announce his policy via Twitter.  This is unprecedented (- yes I spelled it right, unlike Trump) and it’s just plain fucking dangerous.  What is next?  Announcing that Freedom is ending in America?  I wouldn’t put it past him, he’s already trying to strangle the free press and dispense with those who disagree with or challenge him on anything.  He’s definitely not one who can or will lead us to a more peaceful and free world.  Not Trump. That. Is. For. Sure.

 As I say at the end of every post…Peace!  I am hopeful that one day there will be peace on earth, I just pray it’s not the peace that follows a complete nuclear obliteration – that silence of the darkest kind.  Pray with me.  Stand up.  Speak out. Get Angry.  It’s time for all of us to stand together and be heard.

Peace.   ~MB

It’s Official. We are Screwed.

I am completely shell shocked.  How could this happen???  Somehow the Republican party has commandeered our country.  I fear we are in deep trouble on so many fronts.

I got up this morning –after staying up til 1 am watching election coverage on TV.  I rose to a feeling of complete disgust at the news that Trump had won the election somehow.  And to know that he did NOT win by majority vote, but by electoral vote just drives me mad!  Why doesn’t majority vote count?  I don’t get it.

I am a very out and around Butch.  This won’t be a good thing for me or people like me.  Females, queers, LGBT, blacks, Hispanics, Muslims and many other marginalized poplations will be rife for discrimination from the Trump administration. With roughly 50% of my country aligning with his asshole it’s like half of America has white supremacist views.  Either that or they don’t see how racist this guy really is.

What do we do now that this hate filled man of many temperamental attitudes is going to try to lead our country?  I know many said they would move out of the country and it seems that the Canadian immigration website went down because of overload last night.  But that isn’t the answer.  Moving would only bleed the good people from our borders.  Somehow we have to band together and work tirelessly to make sure that our voices are not silenced by this.  We must mobilize for the fights that will come.

I grieve for all that was truly lost last night.  I am afraid of what is to come.  I fear this man will single handedly wreck all that is good.  I’m afraid of all of the people who voted for him.  I fear what it’s going to be like for such an out Butch lesbian to walk thru a Trump ruled country after he is done eliminating all of the rights I and other fought so hard to get.  If this isn’t a reason to stay in the closet I don’t know what is!!!

I steered clear of voicing my political views here for the most part up until this blog post.  I was stressed out by the whole election fearing just this outcome.  Now I think it’s time to speak out and to prepare ourselves for some long hard fights that will certainly be coming to us soon enough.  This loss was the hardest ever in my political lifetime.  I just hope and pray that it’s only a 4 year thing and it doesn’t destroy what 240 years has built up.

Call me what you will.  But I cannot call him MY President.

I worked this morning and it occurred to me that most likely 50% of my customers probably voted for Trump….disturbing and very unsafe feeling.

This Week…

2016-11-05-16-16-15I never title my posts until I am finished writing them.  How about you?  Do you start with a title or the body of your post?  It just occurs to me that maybe I am a bit weird in this respect.

It’s a cold day here in southern Maine.  I been freezing all damned day.  I got up this morning a little later than usual for me….I am usually up by 6 am but today I slept until 9.   Have been fighting being cold ever since emerging from my warm, snuggly bed.  I know.  It is November and I should expect to be chilly.  Doesn’t mean I like it though. And you all know Ijust hate winter anyway…and winter is in the air for sure.  T may even snow today.

I took some time today and stopped at the barber shop and got a nice fresh haircut.  It feels great to have it shaved back to my normal Butch style. Tips #3 blade on top and a #1.5 blade on the sides and back.  Squared off and edged out nicely.  Nothing makes me feel better about myself like a good visit to the barber. I did grow it out to about 3 inches on top….but it was driving me crazy. I do much better with my normal crew cut.  I was not meant to sport longer locks.

I’ve been doing much better this past week.  Been feeling a lot better and have had a good week all around.   Spent a good deal of my days working, which was okay.  I spent some needed time with my Mom and I got things done.

I’ve been chatting with a very sweet woman that I know. I am pretty shy but I’m trying hard. I struggle with letting people get too close to me sometimes.  Hell, all the time!  I am afraid of getting too close and getting hurt yet again. I have stayed clear of online stuff for a good long time now.  The last time I got my heart handed to me it was someone I met online.  I don’t care to repeat that episode. I’ve also decided that you can’t get back together with anyone.  Once you split up its over .  Getting back together is akin to trying to put crap back where it comes from…and that is just impossible.  Thus I am moving into new territory. I am enjoying my current situation and chatting with the new girl.  I do hope it is something I can build on and take a bit further. It would be great to have a steady woman in my life.

Lulu and Nola are doing quite well.  Lu’s itching issue is a bit better with the use of some benadryl and some hydrocortisone spray as a topical treatment. Thanks to those who replied to my blog about the problem.  I have done a lot of research and have concluded it is a dermatitis caused by her being allergic to something. I am just not sure what it issues reacting to. I gather her in a tea tree shampoo which helped her quite a bit.  And whatever it is is not affecting Nola at all, which is great.

The presidential election is this coming Tuesday.  I have very mixed feelings about it. Will be really glad when it’s over…I think.  I am petrified about the possibility of the outcome if Trump gets elected.  I am afraid he will piss off the whole world and make us look like fools.  Not that he hassn’t already done that byeverunning on his platform of hate.  If he’s elected I also fear how much war he will involve us in around the globe.  If she gets in office I am also not sure how I will feel. It’s a battle for sure.  Pour country is perched on the great divide at the moment.

Recently I bought a used Pontiac Grand Prix car.  Now I am not sure about it. I’ve discovered that it’s going to cost me quite a bit to put it on the road and funds are tight right now.  With winter upon me and oil bills coming soon I just can’t afford another big expense .  Social considering selling the car at a profit.  I bought it very cheap in a fast sale from a friend.  I know I can sell I for quite a bit more.  Selling it could help me out with some current bills and oil purchases this winter.  It’s probably my best bet.  I will take a good picture of it and list of online this week most likely.

I have been hanging out with my good friend Linda a lot lately.  It’s nice to have someone around to talk to and to prepare meals with and do fun things with.  She is a very straight friend, which is something I don’t even care about because shesjust a good soul to be around. We do lots of stuff together like visit the thrift stores and ride around town to do errands together.

I am fully back on my hiv meds once again.  That could have something to do with me feeling better as some of the meds are my anti depressants. I have set up my alarm on my phone to remind me to take them and I located my med holders to places where I am reminded too. Ts a bitch to have to take these meds all the time but I was reminded this last week that they are giving me a second chance and also aid in keeping me healthy. My next test and doctors appointment is in December.

OK friends, followers and cyber stalkers I have filled you in on most everything for this week.  I shall wrap it up here and go to co some chicken quesadillas for dinner.  I hope you all have a great time this week!  Remember to go VOTE on Tuesday!  Peace.  –MB

Finally it’s Friday!

Starting my new job today.  Just a clerk job over at the truck stop, but it’s a job and I need to be getting out of the house and working. So I took it when it was offered.  I think I will like it; getting to interact with various people, meeting some new people, etc.

I spent today doing a lot of catching up on paperwork, making phone calls and attending to various other slices of life’s business.  I also did a good amount of reading.  OH! And I ordered a recommended book on Amazon – Chely Wright’s “Like Me”  It came to me as a recommendation from a fellow blogger.  So I finally ordered it and should have it in 4-5 days.  I’m looking forward to reading it. The book is basically about a country western singer who is lesbian and what her life was like before and during her coming out.  It’s supposed to be a very good book..we will see!

I also ordered some new address tags today, I am tired of writing my return address on everything I send out, so I got some of those stick on return address tags custom made by  I have used their printing services before and find them to be the best priced, have the widest variety of products and of good quality.

I got to reading today, some of the replies to my blog on politics that came by email rather than as comments – due to length I think – were really good.  I think people are paying attention.  And the closer we get to these primary elections the worse it is getting here.

Here is one VERY interesting and thought provoking piece that I found – and REPOSTED on MY own Facebook page:

An Open Letter to My Friends by Jeremy Nix on Newsvine

It was INCREDIBLY well written and really lays out what is going on and why Trump is so dangerous to this country; how thinking like he is and following him is just basically saying that you too feel like he does and thus you must be just as bigoted and crazy as he is.  Jeremy Nix says it all so eloquently in this piece. You must read it to understand exactly how nutso this Trump dude really IS.   Can you tell that I personally am right there with Jeremy in saying that I too am cool with it if you remove me from your friends list if you don’t like this post because I too can’t understand why anyone would support someone as hateful, sexist, racist and ignorant as Donald Trump.

Ok, enough of that for today, man, I can get myself so irritated when I start thinking of some of this stuff.  And I need to be calm and chipper to go to work.

I’m off…take care my WordPress friends.  Peace!  ~MB

Politics…Obama’s State of the Union

I just watched the President’s State of the Union Address, his 7th and last address of it’s kind to this congress and the American people.

I personally like Obama and I think that our country is in a better place than it was 8 years ago, under Bush Jr., for sure.  Economically it’s a no-brainer.  Unemployment has been cut in half, and we’ve had steady job growth.  Problem is that wages haven’t been that great and thus the average 40 hour a week employee is actually making about $4000 less than they were averaging in 2004.  With inflation and lower starting wages, a minimum wage that is utterly ridiculous and huge corporate land-slide profits across the board, it shows us that there is still much work to be done in the American job sector.

This president has had the privilege of trying to handle a country; the most powerful country on this planet, as the world is going through extraordinary changes at a pace that will only accelerate from here.  When he took office there was barely any technology in the White House.  Now it’s so much a part of our everyday lives that even us citizens depend on it to get through our days.  When Obama took office Facebook was in it’s infancy, it had only been offered to the public for a mere 2 years and we all know that story – because most of us are part of it!

Along with this extraordinary technological growth for the good that has taken place during Obama’s presidency, we have to remember that much of this technology can also be used for purposes of not only good, but evil as well.  Thus he has had to combat this rising tide of ISIS and other terrorist groups.  Their technology and ability to use it for evil purposes has also grown by extraordinary proportions in the last 8 years, don’t you think?  It only makes sense.

I feel a little for this guy, he’s really been up against a proverbial wall during his time in office.  Maybe I will catch hell from some of you for supporting him as president.

I wrote a blog earlier today concerning being authentic. Well, I am authentically a Democrat.  I believe that we need to work harder as American citizens to correct this political mess that has been created in Washington DC and in most state capitals across the country.  Yeah, it’s a fucking MESS.  Our forefathers must be rolling in their graves about now.

I haven’t spoken much about my political views until recently.  I have been inspired to blog more about it because it’s most of what is in our daily news feed online, on TV, on our phones, and everywhere we look here in the USA.  Trump is making it into a comedy show and the rest are just flabbergasted at what to do about Trump!  It’s seriously a flawed situation.

I’m not sure who the candidates for the Democratic or Republican parties will be, although I think the Republicans are even petrified that it will come down to Trump and I don’t think they are even very happy about that.  I don’t think they want to align themselves with his rhetoric and rancor.  Wherever it comes from, we should all reject politics that disrespect race and religion and that spew hatred for an entire population of people because of the actions or views of a very few.  Trump wants to forbid any immigration of Muslims and he wants to send those that are here back to wherever they came from.  He’s got some really hateful ideas and I think he likes to spit them out just to get people riled up so they won’t forget his name on voting day, and so that he can inject fear into people and play on that fear to get them to vote for him.  He’s great at diving people that’s for sure.  And we do not need more division in this already divided country and it’s broken political system.

Democrats have little choice either.  We have Hillary Clinton and Bernie Sanders.  I think that Bernie isn’t a strong enough character to be president, and I worry about his longevity. Hillary has a lot of political baggage, like most everyone in Washington does.  I need to personally research both candidates more and see who I am going to align myself with  personally.  Hell, maybe it will be some liberal…haha.

Change to our political system has to be done by the American people.  We really need to get back to a of, by and for the people type of democracy somehow.   Obama spoke of this tonight in his address.  We need to stop letting money and power rule our system, and we need to stand up and accept our duties as American citizens; vote, speak out, stand up for other, and stay active in public life with these daily acts of citizenship.  We need to live by the power of example and fix our political machine.

So these are my thoughts on tonight’s speech and my opinions on today’s political scene.  I’m sure I’ll inject more in other blogs as we go through this painful election process here over the next 9 months.  It’s going to be hell, just hell I say!








Politics..My Opinions

I have personally tried to ignore all of the political ruckus that has infected the USA.  I have never in my 54 years seen anything remotely like this kind of politics.  The field of candidates is piss poor to put it mildly.

Of course this is all just my opinion and I am sure some of you are Trump supporters…and am sure you know I am going to talk about the weird man too.  How could one discuss politics now a days without him being front and center on is little show boat.

When I was in the 4th grade there was a Presidential election cycle taking place.  Richard Nixon and his running mate, Spiro Agnew were running on the Republican ticket and Gov. George McGovern with Sargent Shriver on the Democratic ticket.  Nixon eventually  won every state except Massachusetts and DC…something pretty astounding and that has only every been matched by Ronald Reagan in ’84.   I guess that is my first memory of politics and how we got our country’s president elected. I had to choose a candidate and sort of “campaign” for him as my class assignment.  I still have the final report that I did on him oddly enough.  It’s full of articles that I got out of Time magazine and News Week.  I don’t recall who my parents were voting for that year, I would have to guess it would have been Nixon.  This was very much toward the end of the Vietnam war, and that was the biggest issue in the election.  Nixon swearing he would end the long war, and he did so by pulling our troops out of Saigon shortly after he was elected.  There is a whole other story here, but for the sake of brevity here in this blog I am just going to say he pulled the troops out and our involvement in Vietnam ended.  Whether that was the right or wrong thing to do still remains to be seen today.

They used to campaign on the issues, such as the wars, economic stability, health insurance, criminal justice, etc. etc, and less about things like sexual scandals, bad hair and all the weird stuff that seems to permeate this current election cycle. Personally I could care less about DT’s hair or the funny faces he makes, I want to know what he brings to the table as far as governing a country like ours.

How does he intend to fix all of the troubles we are into?  Where does he stand on the war in Afghanistan and Iraq?  Exactly what will he do about ISIS? I’d like to know why and how he’s going to build a wall between us and Mexico.

I am sure there are diplomatic solutions to the Mexican immigration problem.  How about helping the Mexicans make a country that no one wants to or has to leave? I can only assume some things are pretty bad there if people are willing to risk life and limb to cross a border to come to this screwed up country, where they are not really welcome either.  Many, many of them, men, women and children die trying to make the journey to cross that border near Nogales. I think if we were privy to the real story of what it’s like to live and survive in Mexico under the iron rule of drug lords and weapons dealers, facing things daily like human trafficing, kidnapping, brutal murders, beheadings, and other ghastly goings ons.

When we book a “fun” trip to Mexico we don’t see this stuff.  We are shown a very sanitized place, not normally advised to travel outside of the walls of whatever compound we are vacationing at.  It’s not an advisable place for LGBT folks to vacation regardless, it’s not looked upon as a favorable lifestyle in Mexico.  Myself, I wouldn’t go back to Mexico.  I’ve been to the border towns, Juarez, Nogales, and one other I cannot recall the name of.  I was far younger, stupid and didn’t know or hadn’t seen what I do know and see now.  I was also with a large group of other GI’s and we stuck together for safety on those mescal infused nights. My visit to Nogales was accidental..I was driving the back roads around Huachuca and ended up across the border.  When we realized it we immediately turned around and beat feet back to the US side.  But what I saw in that short time was a very sad and impoverished area. It’s one of the main hubs for illegal border crossings I guess.

There’s a miliatary fort, Fort Huachuca right there next to it.  Huachuca is about an hour south west of Tucson, AZ.  I love that part of the country, Arizona, New Mexico and Utah and west Texas.  I could easily live there and be quite content.

One thing I noticed when I spent time there was how great the star gazing is at night.  There is not much “light pollution” so you have a velvet pitch black canvas to see the stars on at night.  I did some service time in White Sands New Mexico and saw more shooting stars than I could ever count.  I remember laying in my sleeping bag in a foxhole and watching the stars; totally enamored by them.  You could literally pick out every constellation and seen most all of the visible planets.  Plus a big part of the Milky Way’s swirl was quite evident.  I had similar star gazing experiences in the Suguaro National Monument in Tucson, and in the Zion Canyon in Utah.  I love to look at the stars, and if I have a telescope with me it’s even more fun, but when you get to a place in the world where there isn’t light pollution from the city lights and you can see so clearly there is nothing like it – telescope or not.

I’ve read in a couple of post on Facebook where people said that “2015 was a year of people being offended by everything”.  I think it’s partially true.  There were lots of things to be offended about!  Mr. Trump himself was  – in my personal opinion – very offensive to many people, groups, and races over this last year. He has a very unfiltered mouth on him; he says it like he sees it and usually that is pretty bluntly offensive.  He tends to lump all of one group into one chunk, then make some rather negative statement about them all.  Such as saying all Muslims are terrorists.  His idea of deporting all Muslims from America, not allowing any Muslim person in to America, etc.  Is just one example.  He also lumps all Mexicans into one group labeling them as drug dealing murders and thieves.  To me his rhetoric is very dangerous.  I should be studying what he has had to say about LGBT people, I’m sure he’s got us all lumped into some fucked up catagory.

Other candidates have said some pretty screwed up stuff too.  Ben Carson isn’t really endearing himself to anyone, he comes off to me as a fairly stupid man.  I know he’s a good guy, that he’s a renowned surgeon and is tops in his field. But what experience does he have in politics themselves?  What has he done outside of his work to help his community/country move forward?  Does he even understand who ISIS is?  I don’t think he will make it as a candidate, so I am not really worried about him truthfully.  He’s just too ignorant personally to hold the office of President of the United States.

Now Hillary Clinton…oh Hillary.  You know this is who I want  to vote for, but she has a lot of explaining to do, a lot to prove to me still and she has to endure the scathing whoopings that Trump is going to unleash on her.  Is she strong enough?  Can she do it without breaking down?  If the election comes down to Trump vs. Clinton it’s going to be one very nasty and fractional battle.  It will cause a huge divide in the US…I predict.  You have the extreme right wing (Trump) against a true left-winger (Clinton).  Many issues from both extremes will come to light.  People will fight more about this election than any in the past I believe.  Trump is teaching people to speak with unfiltered mouths.  He’s saying to people that it’s okay to insult others if it gets you what you want along the way.  He has no professional manners or ways of conducting himself at all.  That’s really apparent.

So, like i said at the beginning of this I haven’t been paying as much attention this election cycle. I must change that immediately. I need to study up on the candidates and think about who I will be supporting.  My one little vote may not count for much, but I believe it counts because if we all vote then we can exact change.  If we all think that it doesn’t matter and we don’t vote then we are allowing those who do vote to dictate where our country is going without any feedback.  It’s important to exercise your constitutional right and vote.  Hell, you can even vote from home with an absentee ballot if it’s too hard to get out to the polls!  Please vote!!!

I am sure that Donald Trump will pretty much buy his way into this office.  If that is possible he will do it.  I worry about that.  He has more money than God…I’m sure he’ll use that to his advantage.  I can’t imagine him living like a president, in the white house….oh what will he do to the interior decorating?  Will it be all gold leaf and ornate objects?  Maybe make it look like Trump Plaza?  Will he actually LIVE there?  It would be a far cry from his extreme penthouse digs for sure.  I don’t know if he could take sleeping that close to the ground!

Soooo…this is the start of my ramblings on the political picture.  I am sure as I research, understand and formulate more opinions here that I will have much more to say.  These are all just my musings and my opinions on this topic, everyone is allowed to have their own, and if we can’t agree we can always respectfully disagree.  I have to say I can see where Trump would be very attractive to a good number of people, he has his base for sure.  It will be interesting to see what happens in the primaries coming up soon.

Comments and input below welcome!  Also if there is anything interesting that you think I need to read/see please forward it along here or to my email address at  I’d appreciate it immensely!

What do you think is going to happen in the primaries?  Who do you think our candidates/choices will eventually be?