Today is one of those days that my mind seems to be going in all different directions with my thoughts. I am really struggling to focus on one thing at a time…thus nothing is really being accomplished here in my world at the moment. So I sat down here and I will write about it, perhaps that will help me to get some resemblance of order going on in my noggin.
Ok, let me get to this. I’ll start with 5 things I am happy for today.
- Waking up feeling pretty good. Not feeling sick or irritable today. This is good.
- Waking up to sloppy dog kisses and Nola trying to shove Lulu off of my chest so she can have some up-close and personal kind of loving. Those dogs love me, this is good.
- It’s Saturday, I have the day off and the weather is perfect at 76 degrees. This is good.
- My mom called this morning to check on me and told me she’s adopting a little older dog who was in an abusive situation with a former breeder. The dog ended up at the local rescue with broken ribs! I’m super happy for both the dog and Mom, this is good.
- My best friend and I are once again on speaking terms and hanging out together. This is good.
The condition of my country right now worries me very, very much. Trump is driving this country to hell. I fear for all of us. And it’s so blatant what he is doing, yet there is still this huge contingent (like 30%) of Americans who actually “like” this man and “like” what he is doing, his policies and his agenda. THAT is the fucking scariest part of all of this! That there are actually people, whole swaths of them, that adore the evil man. It’s just not right and makes no sense to my rational brain.
I get far too emotionally invested in this lately. It’s part of what is stopping me from pursuing the things that make me happier. All that is happening is rolling around in my head, making tons of noise and causing me to be super agitated. I am in a state of perpetual anger and outrage. I feel helpless – as I am sure many do – to do anything to stop some of this senseless madness, like the separation of children from their loving parents at our southern border. The problem is that I don’t know how to ignore this and let it go. I don’t want my country to become this land of “no one cares” and I don’t want to continue to see so many people suffer due to one man’s ignorance, greed and hunger for power. The tension in America is palpable. People don’t know what to do.
Trump is so power hungry. Yesterday he said he wants “his people” to “sit at attention” when he speaks, like they do in North Korea for Kim Jong Un. He uses rhetoric and speaks so cavalierly about brutal dictators who use torture, murder and mass incarceration to govern their countries. He wishes he could do the same. Sad for America. The guy is just a blithering fucking idiot. He loves these brutal dictators and wishes to emulate them in all respects. He has no ethics and is guided by no morals that would tell him that ruling by brutality is just wrong. No, he openly wishes to be treated just like they are treated – with a fake respect borne of fear of death.
There are a virtual TON of legal troubles brewing for Trump and his family. Now especially with Paul Manafort, his campaign manager, in jail awaiting trial. And his former personal lawyer, Michael Cohen now considering giving the federal prosecutors some cooperation in order to reduce the sentences he will be facing when he goes to trial. That’s just 2 of the men that Trump surrounded himself with, and did business with, and cheated the country with over the years. Manafort is a direct link to Russia and Putin. That’s a known fact; a given. What he alone knows will cause Trump a whole heap of problems both personally and politically. It will be interesting to watch as this all plays out over the next few weeks. I don’t think it will be long now before either of these two traitors are talking and giving up highly incriminating info on the big orange traitor in our White House. What gets done with that information is yet to be seen, I know it will be a fucking mess and the Republicans in our Congress will swear it’s all “lies” and try to protect his stupid ass all because they are so afraid of him.
Here’s a fun video from Robert Reich, our fearless leader of the Resistance here in America. He’s a great source of up-to-date information and videos about what is going on inside of our government. It’s with guys like this that we will win, good over evil.
I have turned off my TV for the rest of the weekend. I just had to do it. I seem to be unable to watch television without watching MSNBC or CNN, NECN, or local news. So I had to just turn it OFF. I am going to try to leave it off for the remainder of today and tomorrow. I can read, write and do lots of other stuff that will help me release some of this stress that’s building up inside of me from all of the bad news I view and absorb.
I’m sure I will do more blogging or at least some personal journaling. Writing helps me so very much. In Groups this week we did a thing on our favorite things, so perhaps I will do a blog about my favorite things next, just for fun.
I hope you are all enjoying this weekend. It’s a gorgeous Saturday here in Maine. Today is Portland Maine’s LGBT Pride parade and festival. I was going to go, but decided against it when I got up this morning. Next Saturday is the local Pride parade here, so i will have that one to attend and have fun at. We have a heat wave coming this way beginning Monday, supposed to get up into the mid-90s here, which is super hot for Maine! I’m going to make sure my AC units are fully functioning today!
Stay cool! And be kind!
Peace ~ MB