Focus, Happiness, and the News

Today is one of those days that my mind seems to be going in all different directions with my thoughts.  I am really struggling to focus on one thing at a time…thus nothing is really being accomplished here in my world at the moment.  So I sat down here and I will write about it, perhaps that will help me to get some resemblance of order going on in my noggin.

Ok, let me get to this.  I’ll start with 5 things I am happy for today.

  1.  Waking up feeling pretty good.  Not feeling sick or irritable today.  This is good.
  2.  Waking up to sloppy dog kisses and Nola trying to shove Lulu off of my chest so she can have some up-close and personal kind of loving.  Those dogs love me, this is good.
  3. It’s Saturday,  I have the day off and the weather is perfect at 76 degrees.  This is good.
  4. My mom called this morning to check on me and told me she’s adopting a little older dog who was in an abusive situation with a former breeder.  The dog ended up at the local rescue with broken ribs!  I’m super happy for both the dog and Mom, this is good.
  5.  My best friend and I are once again on speaking terms and hanging out together.  This is good.

The condition of my country right now worries me very, very much.  Trump is driving this country to hell.  I fear for all of us.  And it’s so blatant what he is doing, yet there is still this huge contingent (like 30%) of Americans who actually “like” this man and “like” what he is doing, his policies and his agenda.  THAT is the fucking scariest part of all of this!  That there are actually people, whole swaths of them, that adore the evil man.  It’s just not right and makes no sense to my rational brain.

I get far too emotionally invested in this lately.  It’s part of what is stopping me from pursuing the things that make me happier.  All that is happening is rolling around in my head, making tons of noise and causing me to be super agitated.  I am in a state of perpetual anger and outrage.  I feel helpless – as I am sure many do – to do anything to stop some of this senseless madness, like the separation of children from their loving parents at our southern border.  The problem is that I don’t know how to ignore this and let it go.  I don’t want my country to become this land of “no one cares” and I don’t want to continue to see so many people suffer due to one man’s ignorance, greed and hunger for power.  The tension in America is palpable.  People don’t know what to do.

Trump is so power hungry.  Yesterday he said he wants “his people” to “sit at attention” when he speaks, like they do in North Korea for Kim Jong Un.  He uses rhetoric and speaks so cavalierly about brutal dictators who use torture, murder and mass incarceration to govern their countries.  He wishes he could do the same.  Sad for America.  The guy is just a blithering fucking idiot.  He loves these brutal dictators and wishes to emulate them in all respects.  He has no ethics and is guided by no morals that would tell him that ruling by brutality is just wrong.  No, he openly wishes to be treated just like they are treated – with a fake respect borne of fear of death.

There are a virtual TON of legal troubles brewing for Trump and his family.  Now especially with Paul Manafort, his campaign manager, in jail awaiting trial.  And his former personal lawyer, Michael Cohen now considering giving the federal prosecutors some cooperation in order to reduce the sentences he will be facing when he goes to trial.  That’s just 2 of the men that Trump surrounded himself with, and did business with, and cheated the country with over the years.  Manafort is a direct link to Russia and Putin.  That’s a known fact; a given.  What he alone knows will cause Trump a whole heap of problems both personally and politically.  It will be interesting to watch as this all plays out over the next few weeks.  I don’t think it will be long now before either of these two traitors are talking and giving up highly incriminating info on the big orange traitor in our White House.  What gets done with that information is yet to be seen, I know it will be a fucking mess and the Republicans in our Congress will swear it’s all “lies” and try to protect his stupid ass all because they are so afraid of him.

Here’s a fun video from Robert Reich, our fearless leader of the Resistance here in America.  He’s a great source of up-to-date information and videos about what is going on inside of our government.  It’s with guys like this that we will win, good over evil.

How to Survive Summer with Trump in Office

I have turned off my TV for the rest of the weekend.  I just had to do it.  I seem to be unable to watch television without watching MSNBC or CNN, NECN, or local news.  So I had to just turn it OFF.  I am going to try to leave it off for the remainder of today and tomorrow.  I can read, write and do lots of other stuff that will help me release some of this stress that’s building up inside of me from all of the bad news I view and absorb.

I’m sure I will do more blogging or at least some personal journaling.  Writing helps me so very much.  In Groups this week we did a thing on our favorite things, so perhaps I will do a blog about my favorite things next, just for fun.

I hope you are all enjoying this weekend. It’s a gorgeous Saturday here in Maine. Today is Portland Maine’s LGBT Pride parade and festival.  I was going to go, but decided against it when I got up this morning.  Next Saturday is the local Pride parade here, so i will have that one to attend and have fun at.  We have a heat wave coming this way beginning Monday, supposed to get up into the mid-90s here, which is super hot for Maine!  I’m going to make sure my AC units are fully functioning today!

Stay cool!  And be kind!

Peace  ~  MB

 

Dear Canadians

I really hope that Canadian people do not believe that us Americans are against them, as our IDIOTIC FAKE PRESIDENT currently says.  We do NOT see our Canadian brethren as any kind of threat to America; quite the contrary!  Canada has been our best friend for centuries!  Trump does NOT speak for the citizens of America.  Please, do NOT let him drive this wedge between us as people!  That is what he WANTS, he doesn’t like that Canadian citizens sympathize with Americans who do not bow and cow to Trump’s every word and believe all of his outrageous, daily LIES.

Donald J. Trump is a vile, corrupt, egotistical, nasty old man.  He was PUT into power in the USA by foreign governments, i.e. Russia and Saudi Arabia.  He is NOT a truly elected President, and hold the office only by deception.

Trump does NOT speak for the majority of the citizens of the USA.  Yes, he has a “base” as they call it on the news, somewhere around 27% most of which are white, older, nationalistic, racist and homophobic people who are being completely conned by this guy.  They seem desperate for America to be the big, bad boss of the world, and they want Donald J. Trump to lead them – for some very stupid reasons!

Trump seeks nothing more than one more great photo opportunity.  Front page headlines with HIS name highlighted.  He wants the world to bow and kiss his feet.

He is NOT governing this country, he’s throwing it around like a god-damned pair of dice on some evil board game.  There is no rhyme or reason to any of his methods of madness.  Most of us don’t want this imbecile running our country, but for some fucked up reason the mucky-mucks who have the authority in our governmental tree will not stop him, censor him, speak against him, go against his wishes, or do anything to upset this moron.  And he IS a fucking MORON.

He recently attended the G-7 summit, graciously hosted by your country, and for which we thank you.  Please be aware that we are ashamed to have had to send Donald Trump, we know he arrived late, pushed people around, insulted PM Justin Trudeau even before he got there, continued to insult and agitate all of the heads of state present, and made a lame pitch to get his Russian buddies back to the table.  Then he had the gonads to leave early – AFTER arriving at the Gender Equality breakfast LATE to begin with, he then up and decides to leave EARLY.  FUCKTARD.  DOTARD.  BRAIN DEAD IDIOT

Please forgive us.  WE hate him as much as you do.  And if you know of a way we may rid ourselves of this authoritarian dictator who has commandeered the Presidency of the United States of America, PLEASE help us!!!

We saw how when Trump left on the plane from your country that he immediately took to Twitter to insult Justin Trudeau, for this, we are VERY sorry.  See, Trump cannot handle face-to-face fighting, he can only do it from a distance and from behind the protection of his little Twitter account.  He has no manners.  No Ethics.  No courage or guts. He is childlike and spoiled.

Currently we have NO Foreign policy, no domestic policy or goals, we have no understanding of what the hell is happening to our country.   Politicians remain silent.  They refuse to even speculate as to what Trump’s “grand plan” for America is.  Somehow during our last elections we managed to elect a whole slew of real dead-beats, people who will not stand up and ask hard questions, or rock the boat for answers.  But, we will correct this in our next mid-term election.  We will be coming back for our government, and coming for Trump.

The man is a mere breath away from declaring himself the “Supreme Leader” of America.  It’s very scary.  I think there is a contingent of American politicians and extreme rightwing supporters who would stand behind Trump in his quest for all-out power over America.  He wishes to rule us like a dictator.  He wants to curb free speech, and end the free press.  He wants only what he says is right to be broadcast to Americans; for us to be spoon fed bullshit, lies and bogus false promises.

It’s so insane watching some of these politicians and pundits on the televisions stations trying to explain things; one right now is trying to make excuses for Trump’s behavior…for his attacks on our allies, and for his warmth for Russia.  Even this top Republican politician speaking is saying “I don’t get it.  I sure would like to see Trump’s end-game, but I just don’t get it.  These are not the tactics or methods I would use to negotiate trade agreements with my allies.”  Yep, fucked up shit, huh?

Tonight at 9pm Eastern Time (my time) our idiot will meet with KJU from N. Korea in Singapore.  Supposedly they will meet one-on-one for 45 min, after the famous and historical handshake photo op.  Of course, I am staying awake to watch that part for sure.  It’s going to be interesting.  Trump has been claiming that this meeting will get him the Nobel Peace Prize.  I hope it goes well, for the sake of the world being with less nuclear weapons.  But I am not stupid, I don’t think Trump is the answer to the North Korean conflict problem.  Not at all.  He’s just a pawn in Jong Un’s game….a mere playing piece.

I dare not predict what the hell will happen tonight….it’s almost scary to think about.

What do you think?

~MB

Nola is Turning 10!

2018-06-07 17.33.58Tomorrow is Miss Nola’s birthday.  She was born on June 10, 2008, so she will turn 10 tomorrow.  The obligatory McDonald’s breakfast will be served to her, and she will be hyper-excited when I wake up and say “Happy Birthday Nola!”  She KNOWS what those words mean:  cheeseburger and fries….and a ride in the car!  And Lulu will be just as excited, they will both jump all around on me on the bed and bark for me to get up.

Nola has been with me since July 31, 2008…the day I found her inside of a cardboard box, with the words “Free Puppy” written on the outside.  I looked inside and saw 2 tiny eyes and a puppy about as big as a guinea pig.  She was tiny, adorable, shaking and scared.  I fell instantly in love, and scooped her up right there. She and I became partners.  The deal was sealed, I told the young woman with the box I would take her and she told me that Nola’s mother was a dashound and her father was a chihuahua…thus she’s a “Chiweenie”.  Funny name for a funny little tiny puppy.

First thing I did was go to the pet store and buy her all the necessary puppy equipment.  I was in New Orleans Lousianna…so I named her NOLA, after the city she was born in.  It fit.  It was appropriate.  I also call her “boo-boo” affectionately.  She likes it.  Nolie-boo-boo.  She traveled with me, loved the car, trucks, u-hauls – anything that moved.  I even took her for rides on my motorcycle when I had it.  The dog just loves to BE with me, wherever I am going, whatever I am doing.

For those of us who have chosen not to have human children, a pet can become the “child” that we need to nurture.  Nola has been my best friend.  My confidant, and my sole source of comfort in times of sadness or grieving.  She’s loved me unconditionally; no matter if I was a good person or a bad person on any particular day. She just loves me, period.  And I never take that love for granted.  I make damned sure that I love and pet her as much as possible.  I keep her near to me all the time.  If I must leave her home, like when I go to work, I tell her where I am going and when I will be back.  Perhaps, you think I am nuts.  It’s a dog.  Yes, it’s a dog, but she has feelings and instincts.  She knows when I am preparing to leave and she likes the reassurance that I will be back.  She’s smart.

I love my dogs.  Nola has given me a great 10 years of unconditional support.  Lulu joined our family unit 3 years ago, and she’s just as important!  She’ll be right next to Nola tomorrow morning, celebrating Nola’s AWESOME 10th Birthday!!!!

Peace!  ~MB

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Ice cream love.