It’s Saturday night and I am home trying to figure out what to do with myself! I did some gardening today, and could do more of that until dark…but just not into it right now. I have a lot of junk on my mind and thought I would take a stab at writing some of it down…pondering my thoughts so to speak.
It’s been another fucked up week in America, Trump is somehow still President and he’s been traveling abroad making a complete ass out of himself and embarrassing Americans all over the place. It almost pains me to turn on the daily news, for fear of more embarrassment and stupidity from the White House.
It’s Memorial Day weekend, a time to remember those lost in the fight for Freedom around the world. A time to remember those who are still fighting, still putting their lives on the line every day for our freedom. Today we lost a 25 yr old young man in Syria, I’m not sure what the count is now for Syria…it seems that this “never ending war” that we have been involved in for so many years just seems to keep expanding to different countries. Syria is just the latest. It makes me sad for his family, his wife and 2 young sons who will never know the presence of their father from this day forward. Senseless loss and pain
The news seems to be just filled with so much violence, terror attacks, hate crimes and the such lately. It feels to me like there has really been an uptick in these crimes. I have to say that it is a very different feeling here in the US these days, it’s more fearful, more people seem to feel like it is somehow more acceptable now to lash out in hatred towards those who are “different” from them, whether it be color, religion or socio-economically. I see the “looks” around the store where I work sometimes. It’s just scary.
I’ve been just taking it all in lately, trying to figure out how to feel about it all. I have a president that provokes violence, who doesn’t support our allies, who is against conservation and clean energy, who is corrupt and colluding with the enemy. Just how the fuck am I supposed to feel as an American right now? I’ll tell you how I am feeling…I’m feeling very discouraged, very ashamed and embarrassed. I don’t understand why the representatives that we have elected to represent us are NOT doing their jobs. Why are THEY not up in arms about this incompetent man we call POTUS? What has he got over them that keeps them all from removing him from office, as he should be removed! I am completely frustrated by our politicians and representative’s lack of action and lack of words. They should be speaking out, speaking up and representing us as they were all elected to do. They do not work for him, they work for US!!!
Ok, let me get off of that subject now. It just infuriates me to watch my country going to hell like it is under this administration. The damage will take decades to repair, it’s sad and it’s unconscionable.
My gardens are looking pretty good. I have been planting more perennials in the flower beds, and today I got the black mulch for the beds. Tomorrow morning I have plans to get up and tackle finishing the garden edging and spreading the mulch.
I haven’t even touched the veggie garden yet. I am hoping that I will find some time this weekend to at least get in the pumpkin seeds. I got some giant pumpkins to grow! I hope I have as good a luck this year with them as I did last year.
I’m a little behind just because I can’t always seem to find the ambition to do things that need to be done around here. I mean the place looks great, but I want it to look even better! I have to paint the front porch and put in new ballisters. I’m looking toward possibly next weekend to tackle that project, depending upon the weather forecast. We have had a lot of rain lately! I need the porch to dry completely, scrape it, prime it and then paint it with a good quality deck paint. I’d like to get a couple of years out of a painting! I will have to take some new photos and show you all what things are looking like around here.
I’ve been feeling pretty good Staying healthy and trying to be happy. My depression still rears it’s ugly head too frequently. I am thinking of changing my anti-depressant meds to a new one, I’ve been on this one I am on now for over 5 years, I don’t think it’s working very well anymore. Other than that, I am doing very well.
Tomorrow is my annual Memorial Day barbeque at my parent’s home in the next town over. I’ll be surrounded by my 4 siblings and their families, lots of other dogs and hopefully it will be a fun and relaxing time. As long as we stay away from religion, politics and sexual conversations everything will be just fine. I tend to hold very differing opinions of some of those things than some of my more conservative family members do, which can pose a problem in arguments should they occur. I am looking forward to just a relaxing day in the sunshine eating pulled pork sandwiches and bird watching. There are some awesome birds up there!