Whoa! It was some fucking hot here in Maine today! It got up to about 95 here where I live in little town southern Maine. And that is not only very hot, but very unusual for this part of the country. We generally don’t see temperatures in the 90’s until late July, early August, and even then they are short lived. Good summer temps here are generally in the high 80’s and the humidity can vary depending on rainfall and how close you are to the water. I get a lot of ocean breeze here where I am, which is kind of nice. You can always tell when the tide is rolling in because you can smell the salt in the air.
My moods have been fucked up lately. But I am feeling better overall. I know that the moods are affected by my various medications, and that’s to be somewhat expected, but still it can be aggravating to me. I am going to try a new product, called Kratom. I’ll be doing a bunch of research on it this weekend and hopefully finding some quality product to try out. It came as a recommendation from a good friends in California who uses it for pain relief and a mood booster — which is close to exactly what I would want to use it for. It’s an herbal productr from Asia, and isn’t FDA approved, but it’s legal and it has been shown to have significant benefits used in the correct manner. I’d love to hear from any one who has any personal experience with Kratom as to how you like it and what kinds of benefits it has brought to you.
The house looks pretty good. I am getting ready to paint the font and back porches, spruce them up a bit. They could use a good coat of new paint. I did get the skirting done on both porches, so that animals can’t easily get under there and bother me. We have some resident ground hogs that live under our various neighborhood sheds. Hopefully they will stay out of the veggie garden!
I been catching up on my blog reading, so if you are seeing comments from me suddenly on your blogs it’s because I am playing catch up. This last month I have been really not reading or writing much. I just needed time to THINK without processing every little bit through my writing. I have been going to group still, but I think I am about done with that for now. I’m not feeling like I am getting much out of it personally. And it’s expensive, as it’s an out of pocket cost for me every week. I’ve done well, things are still right on track and I feel that I can drop the group therapy thing with no problem. I will continue with one-on-one therapy for a bit longer, until I feel that I am solid in my recovery. Plus, hey personal therapy doesn’t hurt one bit. It’s actually been good for me, helps me process some of the fucked up shit I have had to deal with lately. And that is good.
Linda and I are going to take the dogs to the doggie event at the Raitt Farm this weekend. They are having a big event to promote adoption and support for the local shelters. Ought to be fun and interesting. Food, games, dog stuff, dog fun events, etc. I’m looking forward to Saturday for this reason!
I’ve been working a little more than usual lately. It’s really gotten wicked busy at my place of employment. Like today, we sold TONS of water and ice, seemed that everyone who came in was stocking up on hydration and ice. We have many customers who are local landscapers and construction workers, so they need to stay hydrated as they are working ou in the heat and sun. I still enjoy the job, enjoy the people and seeing all the locals on a regular basis. It’s nice when people come in and know my name, greet me with enthusiasm and make small talk about townie stuff. Yeah, I don’t foresee leaving there anytime soon. It’s really a perfect little part time job for me. Keeps me with a weekly schedule, holds me responsible to others and gives me a little sense of purpose and security. The money isn’t great, but it’s enough to make a difference in my budget…I would not stay if it weren’t. I also really like the people that I work with, and that always makes a difference to me.
On the political front…I have been keeping up per my usual habits. I keep a very close eye on the imbicile in the White House, aka the UGLY ASS ORANGE ONE who is our “fake POTUS”. I have had to temper my reactions a bit. I was allowing myself to be negatively affected by the news, and that’s not good. It’s important to have good information and a measured response. I can’t do anything about the situation on my own, thus I cannot let it eat at me like I was previously allowing. Staying informed, watching and contacting my representatives every chance I get is how I am staying involved. I think you will soon see another big march on the White House, especially with things getting a super hot as they are there. Just in the last 10 days alone things have begun to spiral out of control in the White House. Trump is feeling the pressure and doesn’t like it one bit. While he likes attention like no one I have ever previously seen, he is not as fond of “negative attention” – even though it still serves it’s purpose in getting him to the front and center of everyone’s minds. He would rather be adored than abhorred, but he’ll take whatever he can get at this point, I believe. It’s AMAZING how he can lie daily to us, and yet there is still a loyal following that actually believe what this asshole is dishing out to them. They are like hogs slathering at the feed though, sucking up his vile words like they are candy. Yep, he is quite the con artist for sure. I am just really saddened that so many people have been bamboozled by his insanity and daily lies.
Ah, it’s 4:21 am and the birds are starting to sing outside. I have all of the windows and doors open, am sitting her in just my boxer briefs enjoying the coolness of the air upon my skin. Yep, semi-naked blogging, hahahaha. I love this time of morning, the peace and quiet, save for the sounds of nature waking up to this new day. I feel like I can think so much more clearly and without noise pollution and obstruction from outside sources at this time of morning.
I am working at 6am, until probably about 1pm today. Depending on how busy it gets there, I will stay as long as I am needed. It’s going to be a bit more normal temperature wise, in the high 70’s, today. Plus it’s air conditioned at work, so it’s not so bad hanging out there and working instead of being at home fighting the heat at high-noon! Today is Friday, payday and errand day! Linda and I will get together after we are done with our work/jobs. We will go to town (Portsmouth) and take care of our weekly Friday errand lists. Generally that entails a stop at the grocery store, smoke shop, gas station, Walmart and wherever else we need to go. It’s become a ritual with us on Fridays now. We team up in one vehicle as to save gas and wear and tear on our trucks. We alternate vehicles each week, one week using mine and the next using hers. I gassed up yesterday evening, so today I am sure we’ll use Linda’s truck so we can gas that one up and do our stuff.
I spent last evening cleaning up my house really good, getting organized for the weekend and so I won’t have any of that stuff to do today! I like this feeling of accomplishment that comes with having a clean, organized and well maintained household. I’m so excited for a good weekend, which I totally plan on having, that I even got up earlier than usual this morning. I was up by about 2:45am, and raring to go! I went to bed pretty early, so I got plenty of sleep I am sure.
Ok, Happy Friday! I do sincerely hope that each of your days are good ones! Everyone have a great weekend, and I may even write more tomorrow, depending upon time and how I am feeling. Thanks for reading! Thanks for following! I sincerely appreciate you, my dear readers! Peace! ~MB