What a day. Personally, I was tired all day because I didn’t sleep well last night and I was woken up at 5:45 by my assistant manager asking me to report to work early because someone had called out sick. I begrudgingly got up and went in at 7am, only an hour early but because of my lack of sleep it was more of a chore than anything else. I came home and desperately wished to watch the news and see what Comey had to say today about Trump and his lying tweets about Obama spying on him, but I was so tired that I fell onto my bed and fell fast asleep for 3 1/2 hours. Thus my afternoon was wasted, but at least I did catch up on some sleep.
Tonight me and Linda, my bestie, made an awesome dish of shrimp scampi and had dinner together. She borrowed my vehicle and will come get me in the morning very early as I have to be at work tomorrow at 6am. Her truck is in having a wheel bearing replaced and she has to be at work at 2am.
After dinner I sat and watched the news, and caught up on some YouTube videos. YouTube has begun to censor most LGBT videos and their creators accounts. They have now made all “potentially controversial” topics – mostly LGBT stuff – available only in the in-restricted mode, and have restricted and blocked most of my videos. They claim this is to keep YouTube “family friendly” but it’s very homophobic in the end. They haven’t blocked videos of straight people making out and doing heavy petting or talking about sex, only the LGBT ones. Smells of homophobia and censorship to me. I turned around and made my own video for my channel about this. You can see my latest video here.
YouTube is a resource. It can be a terrific place to develop community and to meet like-minded people. For youth it can be the ONLY place that they may find answers to some of their more pointed questions. Most don’t grow up being exposed to LGBT people, and thus YouTube can give them the exposure that they seek when they are questioning their own selves. I understand blocking things like pornography and explicit material like that from young eyes/ears. But restricting a video where I may talk about what it was like growing up Butch and talking about my own personal struggles with my own sexuality is not helping anyone. If a kid needs to talk to someone or wants to know about coming out YouTube is a great resource for this. It is probably something they can’t or won’t speak with their parents about. While I agree that some sort of “filter” is appropriate for children, I also believe that we must educate our children, teach diversity and tolerance and openness. Blocking information about the LGBT community on YouTube is not the answer.
I have gotten emails and messages from many LGBT youth over the years. Most start with “my mom/dad doesn’t understand me, I think I am gay” and many go on to tell me how frustrated and lost they are and how they have no one to turn to or talk to. Some tell me how they fear being thrown out of their homes if they are “found out” and some fear violence at the hand of a parent. I fear these kids are so oppressed that they will do something drastic. I remember growing up and how hard it was for me to deal with my own sexuality as a teenager and having no one to talk to about it. I only WISH that I had had a resource such as YouTube at my disposal during those times.
I am a YouTube creator and have been for almost 10 years now,. I enjoy putting together videos of my thoughts and my experiences. Most of my videos deal with the LGBT lifestyle, being butch or politics. I often am inspired to do a video by another YT creator. They may do an interesting topic, and I may do one of my own like it. Or I do a response video to their original. I’ve built a decent sized following on YT, but lately my subscriptions have been disappearing because of this new restriction thing. I enjoy my YouTube community, enjoy getting to know people and making friends there. I don’t want to give it up or boycott the site. But something has to give with this censorship.
That’s all for tonight. While I am still digesting what has gone on in Washington today I will spare you my thoughts on that subject for tonight. I hope you will leave me a comment below about what you think about internet censorship and everything I have said above. Thanks for reading! Peace ~MB