Big Word: Intersectionality

I seem to keep running into this word: Intersectionality.  So, I went to Wikipedia to research it’s origin and meaning; to give myself some basic understanding of the word.  This is one of those specific times that I wish I had much more direct contact, like in face-to-face conversations, with others in the LGBT community on a regular basis.  But, I am relegated to internet relations and community for now – it’s a hazard of living as an older LGBT person in rural America.  I wish I could discuss this word and it’s meaning and how it pertains to the LGBT community with some people who could explain it to me in more detailed terms.

From what I am gathering here it means basically that there are lots of “parts” of you that come together to make a “whole” of you.  And “intersectional theory” claims that there are overlapping or intersecting social identities and related systems of oppression, domination and discrimination.  This gets really deep, basically saying that we are multi-dimensional and intertwined with our various “parts” and the discrimination/oppression we experience is generally addressing the individual parts.  So, I may be oppressed because I am a woman on one level, and then discriminated against because I am lesbian on another platform.  It’s quite complicated.  But I get the gist of it.

I encourage you to click on the link to the word intersectionality and read up on it.  You may hear it being tossed around in the media a bit more, as we are realizing that marginalized people like us are also intersectionally challenged with multiple types of oppression, domination and discrimination.

I know, this is a deep subject I have chosen to address here, but it’s important for me to understand things like this as much as I possibly am able to understand.  Vocabulary and wordsmithing is something I really like.  I love to learn new words, and how to use them properly.  I do realize that my understanding of “intersectionality” is currently limited to what I am reading here and on the web in general, and that personal discussion of how it affects others is much needed for me to understand it completely.  So, if you have some input for me, or a take on what it means for you please leave me a comment, let’s have a discussion!

Peace!  ~MainelyButch

BREAKING: Trump pulls health care bill!

It’s just after 4pm here on the east coast of the US, and Trump has told Paul Ryan to “pull the health care bill.”  He doesn’t want it to go to a full vote because he knows it will LOSE and the Old Orange One cannot stand to lose anything.  Here is his first big piece of legislation and he can’t even play by the rules.  I wish they had let it go to vote and killed it outright, that would have been the best, but I am glad that it’s a dead issue anyway.

Paul Ryan is about to speak live from the Capital and then Trumpy is suppose to be addressing the nation live from the Oval Office after that.  I am SURE they will spin that that it is somehow “not their fault” and the evil Democrats will pay for this.  He just can’t take it when negotiations don’t go his way, he’s even got his Republican buddies calling him “The Negotiator” now…well it didn’t work did it asshole?!

I am happy that ObamaCare will stand.  Sure, it could be improved, but overall it’s far, far better than what Trump and the Republicans were trying to shove down our throats.

Peace!  ~MB

#RESIST

TrumpCare…strike 1

Well, TrumpCare did NOT get voted on today.  Seems that Donny Boy is having trouble garnering enough votes to get it passed, so he cancelled the voting so that he wouldn’t look worse when it got voted down.  I wish they had voted on it, so it would have been killed.  Trump is not happy with this, as one can imagine.  He wanted to pass his descimating health care bill ON the 7th anniversary of the ACA (ObamaCare) being signed by President Obama.  But, it backfired.  He cannot get the votes needed to pass it because so many from his own party can see how horrible this AHCA will be for everyone.

They had meetings all day as he tried to apply pressure to representatives to vote his way.  One of the meetings was on whether or not maternity care and mammograms should be considered “essential” treatments covered by all health insurance policies under the Republican proposal.  NOT ONE WOMAN WAS IN THE ROOM, OR PART OF THE DISCUSSION ON THIS…NOT ONE.  I personally find this highly disturbing.  Women have been excluded entirely from all of Trumps agenda.  But to have them also excluded from a discussion that DIRECTLY affects all of the women in the USA is horrible.  It shows me that Trump is so threatened by women, that he wants to control all aspects of women, he wants to strip us of any freedom of choice or rights that we have.  I am sure if he can manage it he will also try to take away women’s voting rights.  The man is a seriously dangerous threat to all women.

Trump should not be allowed to continue with his “agenda” at all right now.  He is under investigation for “collusion” with the Russians and it’s getting very serious.  In my opinion, and in the opinion of many, he is an illegitimate president and should be halted from signing any more executive orders or pushing any more laws through until after this full investigation is over.  But he seems to be trying to “fast track” things, like the AHCA and the Immigration Ban – I think because he KNOWS that his time is limited now; that he’s in deep, deep doo-doo and he’s going to be thrown out soon.  Impeach the bastard.

If it were a Democratic president in office under these same circumstances right now the Republicans would be having a shit fit about him pushing any sort of legislation through while under investigation.  So I think it’s only fitting to hold Trump and the Republican party to these same standards.  It pisses me off that the Republicans seem to have this “high and mighty” idea that they are somehow “above the law” in so many respects.  Just because they happen to hold a slight majority right now in the house and senate they think they have everything in their control.  They are very narrow minded it seems, everything is about the almighty dollar and nothing is about compassion or caring about the people of this country.  It must be a very sad thing to be a Republican. Very Sad.

I am praying hard for my country right now.  Things are just going to get worse and the ride is going to be very bumpy for sure.  When all of the nastiness comes out publically I think that it will divide us even more.  There are so many people still that actually believe this outrageous liar called “president”.  I am scared about what will happen; scared about possible riots and violence.  I am scared that Trump will try something foolish, like trying to over throw our government in some way.  He is very much acting like a dictator and is unwilling or unable to see that he is NOT above American law.

I’ve heard that TrumpCare will be postponed indefinitely, then I heard that they would try to put it to a vote on Friday.  Trump will NOT let it go to vote unless he has a sure win in his pocket.  I pray it will be blocked.

That’s it for tonight.  Peace.  ~MB

 

Is this really 2017?

I feel like we are heading in a backwards direction.  One would think that in 2017 we would have stopped arguing and fighting against stupid shit.  But no…

It’s the weirdest thing to sit and watch everything unfold with Trump.  To watch him lie and awkwardly spin things is just something I NEVER thought would come from a US President.  To have the White House tell you that you should believe the lies because he is the leader, and what he says must be true – even when it’s proven to be an outright lie.  His supporters are buying it like idiots, even as they witness reality unfolding in real-time.

We have an illegitimate president who is now being investigated for his ties to Russia.  Russia?!  The big bad Bear.  I served in the US Army, stationed in Germany, during the “Cold War” and Russia was our biggest threat to world security.  Unless I have missed something in the past 35 years, they still ARE the biggest threat!  And to think that they influenced our election in any way is just plain scary.  They are some ruthless and smart fuckers; their reach is astounding and Americans cannot ever let their guard down or underestimate the Russians.

Two months into his presidency Trump’s administration is failing badly.  They want you to think they are oblivious and they are succeeding, but with a popularity rating of 37% after 2 months, he’s losing ground fast.  The investigation into the Russian meddling into our election and his Twitter lies about wire tapping have driven him down this week.  His Trumpcare bill goes for a vote on Thursday, and today he went to the hill to threaten his Republican constituents that if they did not vote it in that he would go after them in the next election, that basically they were under orders to pass this bill no matter what.  This bill will decimate our health care system, and millions will suffer the fate of no coverage.  Even Republicans can’t stomach that, at least the ones with a conscience.  Even the CBO (Congressional Budget Office) says that this plan is not a good one.  What more do we need?  Major changes to this bill must be made before it goes any further.  If he wants to change Obamacare then do it so that it’s better not worse.

I just wonder how these politicians can sit up there on Capitol Hill and not see what we as Americans are seeing; not hearing what we are hearing.  It just blows me away. What do they know that we do not know?  This government has gotten so secretive in the last 60 days, it’s scary as fuck.  I don’t trust a one of then anymore.  None are working in favor of the people, all are just covering their own asses – and it’s fucking obvious!!!  So, I ask, HOW DO we stop this madness?

I am going to try to put my LINK to my online paper here.  The Relevant Times publishes daily on Paper.Li and is full of information concerning the LGBT community and politics in the US.  It’s kind of an experiment for me right now; something I am hoping will be fun and informative to my followers. Let me know what you think.  I do not hand pick the articles, I trust my sources and have selected those I believe bring us the most up to date stuff.  Let me know what else I could include in the paper, or if you have a trusted source you think I could draw content over to it from.  Most of my current content is coming over from Twitter at this time, and this will expand once I am more secure in the publication.

 

 

 

Closet or Not?

I’ve been thinking a lot about this topic, I watched a video on YouTube about whether it’s okay or not to stay “in the closet” about your sexuality if you are LGBT forever or not.  This gave me a lot to think about because I am currently talking to someone who IS living in the closet, and I am not.

Personally I  could never live my life permanently in the closet.  I can’t imagine what that would be like.  I can’t imagine being afraid that someone would “find me out” and what it would mean if they did.  I have lived most of my life out and proud.  It’s just the way it happened for me.  I came out to my family when I was getting out of the Army, around 22 yrs old, and I have never looked back and thought I shouldn’t have done it.  It’s made my life so much more enriched and so much easier as I have never had to hide anything about my true identity.

Coming out is a very personal thing.  I’ve never been a big believer in a particularly “loud” coming out.  I think they way that I did it, by coming out to people on an “as needed” basis was right for me.  I know some people really want to make a big deal out of it, but I am a more private person and never felt it was a big deal at all.  It is just who I am.  In my way of thinking my sexuality is no one’s business but my own.  If the need to tell someone that I am a gay woman comes up, it’s because they are either questioning me about it or they are wanting to “fix me up” with their male friend.  Never have I found it necessary to just come out to anyone without reason.  My family had reason because I am close to them and they see who I spend all of my time with and when I am most happy in the company of another woman.  They needed to know.

So, I am becoming very attached to this woman, Beach Babe, that I’ve been talking to and I have been thinking about what it would be like to be dating someone who is “in the closet.”  She lives quite a ways from me, so it’s not like we have had to deal with this yet.  But when we are together what will it be like for me? For her?  Will she be afraid that she will be seen with me and be found out?  How has she handled this in the past?  Has she ever been with someone who is so blatantly out like I am?  Who lives their lives as an openly lesbian woman?  Who is so Butch that they cannot hide and whoever they are with will be deemed to be gay as well?  These are all questions I have about this.  I haven’t seriously gotten into any sort of a deep conversation with her about it.

I understand that she has lived closeted all of her life because of religious views of her and her family, and now because she fears losing her job.  She has a job working with teenagers, and fears that if their parents knew or the boss knew that she is lesbian that it would cause problems and maybe cause her to lose her job.  I couldn’t even imagine what that must feel like; what it would be like to have to hide part of myself like that.

She seems to think it’s not a big deal.  But we haven’t been with each other in public so I don’t know exactly how far in the closet she is.  I guess I will find out when we meet in May.  I will NOT like hiding myself.  I will NOT do it.  There is no way I can “act” or “look” straight, like she does.  I don’t know if she has ever dated a Butch like me; a Butch who looks the whole stereotypical part.  Does she understand that to be seen with me is to be “seen”?

Can I date someone who is still in the closet at 46?  I am not 100% sure.  But I really like this woman and do want to find out.  The other piece of this is the distance thing.  Guess she and I have some conversations to have…

 

YouTube Censorship

What a day.  Personally, I was tired all day because I didn’t sleep well last night and I was woken up at 5:45 by my assistant manager asking me to report to work early because someone had called out sick.  I begrudgingly got up and went in at 7am, only an hour early but because of my lack of sleep it was more of a chore than anything else.  I came home and desperately wished to watch the news and see what Comey had to say today about Trump and his lying tweets about Obama spying on him, but I was so tired that I fell onto my bed and fell fast asleep for 3 1/2 hours.  Thus my afternoon was wasted, but at least I did catch up on some sleep.

Tonight me and Linda, my bestie, made an awesome dish of shrimp scampi and had dinner together.  She borrowed my vehicle and will come get me in the morning very early as I have to be at work tomorrow at 6am.  Her truck is in having a wheel bearing replaced and she has to be at work at 2am.

After dinner I sat and watched the news, and caught up on some YouTube videos.  YouTube has begun to censor most LGBT videos and their creators accounts.  They have now made all “potentially controversial” topics – mostly LGBT stuff – available only in the in-restricted mode, and have restricted and blocked most of my videos.  They claim this is to keep YouTube “family friendly” but it’s very homophobic in the end.  They haven’t blocked videos of straight people making out and doing heavy petting or talking about sex, only the LGBT ones.  Smells of homophobia and censorship to me.  I turned around and made my own video for my channel about this.  You can see my latest video here.

YouTube is a resource. It can be a terrific place to develop community and to meet like-minded people.  For youth it can be the ONLY place that they may find answers to some of their more pointed questions.  Most don’t grow up being exposed to LGBT people, and thus YouTube can give them the exposure that they seek when they are questioning their own selves.  I understand blocking things like pornography and explicit material like that from young eyes/ears.  But restricting a video where I may talk about what it was like growing up Butch and talking about my own personal struggles with my own sexuality is not helping anyone.  If a kid needs to talk to someone or wants to know about coming out YouTube is a great resource for this.  It is probably something they can’t or won’t speak with their parents about.  While I agree that some sort of “filter” is appropriate for children, I also believe that we must educate our children, teach diversity and tolerance and openness.  Blocking information about the LGBT community on YouTube is not the answer.

I have gotten emails and messages from many LGBT youth over the years.  Most start with “my mom/dad doesn’t understand me, I think I am gay” and many go on to tell me how frustrated and lost they are and how they have no one to turn to or talk to.  Some tell me how they fear being thrown out of their homes if they are “found out” and some fear violence at the hand of a parent.  I fear these kids are so oppressed that they will do something drastic.  I remember growing up and how hard it was for me to deal with my own sexuality as a teenager and having no one to talk to about it.  I only WISH that I had had a resource such as YouTube at my disposal during those times.

I am a YouTube creator and have been for almost 10 years now,.  I enjoy putting together videos of my thoughts and my experiences.  Most of my videos deal with the LGBT lifestyle, being butch or politics.  I often am inspired to do a video by another YT creator.  They may do an interesting topic, and I may do one of my own like it.  Or I do a response video to their original.  I’ve built a decent sized following on YT, but lately my subscriptions have been disappearing because of this new restriction thing.  I enjoy my YouTube community, enjoy getting to know people and making friends there.  I don’t want to give it up or boycott the site.  But something has to give with this censorship.

That’s all for tonight.  While I am still digesting what has gone on in Washington today I will spare you my thoughts on that subject for tonight.  I hope you will leave me a comment below about what you think about internet censorship and everything I have said above.  Thanks for reading!  Peace ~MB

 

 

Our Child-like President

Alright, I’ve admitted that I am a news junkie…but I am particularly obsessed with this illegitimate president we have occupying the White House part time, yeah Donald J. Trump.  I watch and read news stories regularly, and most of what I am reading/watching lately is stuff about him, his budget suggestions, his health insurance plan, his cabinet picks, and his child-like behavior in office.  As much as I have read/seen it STILL amazes me that this freak is still in office after 58 days.  Yes, it’s been 58 days since he took office on Jan. 20, 2017 and began to set the country on it’s ear.  Fifty-eight days of stupidity.

Trump changes the topic every week.  Sometimes a couple of times a week, depending upon his mood and how mean he feels that day.  His Tweets have shown how childish and self-centered he is.  His cabinet choices show me that he is lining us up for a complete hostile take over of our government.  He says he is trying to make America great again…then he does things to tear our country apart; to divide us and to cause us anxiety and harm.  He does not engage the citizens.  He hides from us; from the press and from directly answering any question.  He takes responsibility for nothing and continually blames others for any problems he encounters.  Like now he is blaming Fox News for his “wire tapping” Tweets, saying it was a report from one of their journalists – that he obviously believed – that he was referring to in his Tweets.  “Don’t ask me, go ask Fox.”

This man is pure evil.

I  watched Saturday’s press conference, with him and Angel Merkel, leader of Germany, and was horrified at how he presented himself and represented the USA.  He literally disrespected her on national television with the whole world as witness.  He ignored her handshake request at the podium, and wouldn’t make eye contact with her.  His posture was child-like and very weak looking.  He sat in the chair like a little boy being scolded.  It was very difficult to watch, I felt uncomfortable for America.  He did not do us justice.  He did not look or act or talk like a world leader, like the leader of the free world…and Merkel appeared just as surprised, perhaps even a bit insulted to be forced to stand next to this pathetic man-child.  Yes, I was embarrassed, and he should have been too.  He was ill prepared to host this great leader of Germany and it was very obvious he did not know how to act or carry himself in a stately manner.  He was very uncomfortable, and it showed.

I don’t understand HOW he is staying in office.  Trump might be a great guy in another context, but as a president he is not.  He knows only the life of the rich and famous, he doesn’t “get” what it’s like to actually have to struggle and earn a living in America.  He doesn’t understand how to talk to people, how to converse and exchange ideas.  He only knows how to give orders and bark commands – like a BOSS, not as a president.  He doesn’t seem to know how to ask for things, but certainly knows how to demand them.  The difference is that he is an actor, a TV personality, a reality show host, and NOT a politician who is schooled in proper etiquette and on how to conduct oneself in situations like yesterday’s press conference.  He knows how to boast about himself, and how to condemn America as “carnage”…constantly patting himself on the back and saying how people think he’s so great.  The man is DELUSIONAL.  I believe he is actually mentally deficient, or at least socially inept.

I won’t even get started on his proposed new budget.  It’s another piece of hate-filled legislation that he will try to ram down the throats of Americans.  I am hoping and praying that the Congress will look at his suggested budget and realize that it is just his desire, and that they will put together a budget that will be more reasonable.  It’s up to them to make and ratify the budget, his proposal is only that – an outline of what he wants to see.  And his ideas are very much right leaning.

I have been very active on Twitter and Facebook in voicing my opinion of this president and his administration.  I will continue to voice that opinion, I will continue to resist.  I think that he will ultimately dig his own political grave with one of his immature Tweets at some point.  Let’s hope it is before he gets us into a war with North Korea or China.  Let’s hope it’s before he decimates the economy, destroys our culture and alienates all of our allies.  And let’s hope it’s before the end of the year.  I predict that it will be, because after only 58 days he is gaining more and more opponents every day.

Peace.   ~MB