I spent about 2 hours tonight rifling through the in-box of my email account. I then deleted the entire in-box contents…after discovering that I had saved emails from people who I don’t even know anymore. Disturbing to see them still. But all the emails are gone now, and my in-box is clean as a whistle. Yay! Feels good to have a fresh slate there. I think I’ve been purging some pent up feelings lately, and doing that was just part of me getting rid of stuff that I didn’t need to be keeping for any reason whatsoever.
It was a good day to be Butch. I raked leaves for 2 hours this morning and bagged them for curbside pick up. I then hauled everything out of the shed (because I couldn’t get in there!) and neatly put it back in – after sorting through thing and making 3 piles, one for donation, one for keeping and one for the trash. Then I reorganized things and got the stuff taken to it’s proper places, i.e. donations and trash. I felt very accomplished after getting those two big tasks done. And I worked alone today because I needed to do these things myself. I needed some alone time, and I needed to exert myself physically to work off some pent up rage. It worked, I am cool as a cucumber tonight. My world is organized and I feel good about it.
I’m all ready for the holidays I think. My tree is up and decorated real cute. I spent some time by myself on Sunday after work decorating it. Nola and Lulu just watched from their designated couch spots and thought about how insane I was being to be decorating a tree in the house! haha. I chose all of my favorite ornaments and then sorted the rest and donated what I no longer wanted to the Salvation Army store with the rest of the stuff I purged. I have been working through my address book and writing out Christmas cards. I find that to be a cool thing because it makes you think of every person who is in the address book for a few minutes, where they are in your life and what they mean to you. It’s a good exercise I believe. Of course there’s always the line through those who are no longer around, because of death or just plain ghosting (those that just disappear from your life for one reason or another).
I need to look back through my blogs here and do some study on which posts garnered more views than others. I would like to up my readership and need to figure out how. I know these posts about my general life aren’t that interesting and it’s hot topics that seem to get more hits here. Thus I am thinking of doing more blogs about those things and perhaps just a weekly update about life in general.
I watched a TED talk about How to Speak Up for Yourself by Adam Galinsky. It was really a good talk and I highly recommend it to everyone, it’s a 15 minute long piece and the time will be well invested. Personally, I learned that I need to have more self-confidence if I am going to stand up and ask for that raise at work that I feel I so deserve. Perhaps today is the day I will find the confidence to ask for it.