I woke up in a cold sweat. Please someone tell me it’s all a nightmare. I cannot even mentally grasp the idea of DJT being President of this country. What will it mean to us? I fear the worst for sure. My Canadian friends have all expressed their shock as well. I bet we are the laughing stock of the world. It just stands to reason.
I got a fresh haircut last Friday up at Boston Barbers whee I usually go. For the first time I let someone else cut my hair in there and for the first time I experienced some discrimination from my barber. I should have waited for Brandon who has been cutting it since Johnny left, but I was in a hurry and took the first available barber who happened to be a black dude who definitely was not comfortable with me, my presentation or the fact I wanted a crew cut. He did a half assed job of it and I was done in less than 15 minutes. He didn’t edge my cut or shave my neck. It was the worst experience I have had in a long time with a barber. He didn’t enjoy his job when it was a Butch in the chair for sure. And it’s a shame because I considered that place to be my go-to barber shop. I usually love it there. Next time I will ask for Brandon or B Skinny to cut it. This last dude is on my no-cut list!
Went to Barnes & Noble bookstore tonight and picked up s new book. I got Gender Outlaws: The Next Generation by Kate Bornstein and S Bear Bergman . It’s got a lot about gender nonconformity and sexuality in it. It is a compilation of submissions from various writers. I find it kind of interesting but…a bit boring in some ways. Personally I am finding it to be a tough read. It isn’t what I expected for sure. I love going to the bookstore though. It just makes me so happy to be in a place full of books and writing implements! I got more joy from the trip to the store than I am from the book. I also got a new coloring journal that I started tonight.
So tonight I will lay my tired head upon my pillow and try to dream of happier times. I will try to think of ways to make some sort of sense of things. I will try not to let the recent election keep me updated down for long. But I still wonder if I will ever feel safe again in this world. Peace. MB