Flannel season has officially begun. My minimized closet, which has been minimized due to my packing to put everything but the bare necessities into storage, holds all of 5 flannel shirts and 2 cotton button downs for those dressier occasions should they arise.
This time of year is my favorite actually. I love my flannel shirts, my dungarees and work boots with thermal socks. I love the layers of clothing and feeling warm and snug. I’ve even had to wear a jacket a few times lately, it’s been getting just that cold. I love waking up to the crisp clean Autumn air, rustling colored leaves and pretty blue skies that seem to be just a bit brighter with their fluffy white clouds around this time of year. There’s just nothing like Fall in New England in my opinion! Nothing like it! It’s just a truly beautiful time of year.
Nothing has been going right lately. I’m packing all of my belongings into a storage unit in Portsmouth. I still have no place to live as of yet. And my life feels like it’s in total limbo. I’ve been hanging in there by a thread, feeling a little bit lower every day. It’s just not what I am used to. I’m so much more organized than this usually, having everything around me in utter chaos feels very wrong.
I have to be out of here by the end of the month, and I will stay with my parents for a short while, and maybe with my cousin for a while if I don’t find anything suitable for the dogs and me soon. I’ve never had this issue, the being sort of homeless issue that is, as I have always known where I was going to go to next, either to a new home, apartment or whatever. This just feels real disconcerting to be in this sort of limbo. The dogs are worrying me too. I have to take care of them and their needs as well. They will stay with me wherever I go, but it will be a time of turmoil for them too.
My truck, which I just dropped a boatload of cash into fixing a couple of months ago has issues again….if it doesn’t rain in my life – it pours! Just what I needed right now when things are so incredibly financially tight because of my moving and storage and the whole housing thing. Seems that I have a major power steering line leak, and on a GMC Envoy those lines are long and wrapped all up under the engine, go to a small cooler and back to the pump (which is new). The line leak is causing me to have to add a pint of fluid a day to the system. Replacing these lines is a major deal, I was quoted the top end of $1400 for the repair – worst case scenario – today. I can’t afford that. Just not going to happen. So I will keep adding fluid and limping it along. I really need to get rid of this SUV and get something else – like another small beater pick-up truck.
So, as you can tell I am in a deeply frustrating point in my life right now. With everything going on, I am just not sure which way to turn, or what to do. I try to go patiently through my days and maintain my cool. I realize that there is only so much I can do right now and that everything is going to take time. I just hope that I can continue to have this patience and not go crazy in the meantime. 🙂 haha
I haven’t been doing much socially lately, haven’t been online much or been very talkative with people. I just have too much on my mind and haven’t felt real good about my whole situation lately. It’s not like I am doing a whole lot that gives me much to talk about besides just packing stuff, hauling stuff to storage and waiting for whatever is next in my days ahead.
Been doing a lot of reading online and watching of Youtube videos lately. Just for entertainment mostly. I have Netflix and am about the dive into the current season of Orange is the New Black, a series which I just love. Tomorrow I plan to tear down my aquarium and clean it up. A friend of mine is taking it to set up at her place. I am going to give the fish to the lady up at the pet store, she can quarantine them and then add them to one of their tanks up there. If I get another aquarium set up in the future I am going to go with the “slim” tank version, it’s really cool looking and saves a lot of space. I saw a nice one set up at Mainely Pets.
So, physically I am doing pretty well, mentally and emotionally I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown, but I’m hanging in there. I hope you are all well and enjoying this beautiful time of year! 🙂 ~MB~