It’s an overcast day, cloudy skies, and smells like it may rain. The air is still thick with humidity, and so is my heart right now. I feel like I can’t really express what I want and feel without it being seen as something else.
I have a serious crush. I am fucking head over heels for this woman. But she thinks that I want to date someone else, which I absolutely do not. I’ve had chances to date other women, but I have turned them down because I am so into her. Just her. Only her. I’m just not the type that can date around, or be dating more than one woman at a time…I’m just not. When I am into someone romantically, it’s them and only them that I focus on. That is the case for me right now. So when I talk about love, I know who I have in my mind, who I am thinking of and wanting so badly. 😉
I may write about love, or the human conditions, but it’s just thoughts, and when I think about love I am thinking about her and how I want things to be with us.
I am considering moving. I have even looked at another place, close by to where I currently live. I will stay in southern Maine. For now my roots are here and this is where I need to be and want to be. But I would like a change; I’ve been in this place over 4 years now and I’m ready for something else. I need a bit more space and I would like to be in a nicer neighborhood. Not that my neighborhood is “bad” but it’s becoming a bit run down because the land owner does not do any maintenance of the property, does not enforce the park rules and it’s slowly becoming more and more run down. I want to get out of here and into a place that is in a park that does enforce the rules and keeps the grounds nicely. The place I looked at has about 300 more square feet of space, has more rooms and is in nice condition, although a bit older. It’s solidly built and could be a nice space for me and the pups. Right now it’s just an idea, but it’s a fairly active one. I will keep looking around, and you could be reading blogs about my moving in the near future.
I hope everyone has a great day! Peace! ~MB~
You have certainly put your heart out there for this certain someone. I think you truly have the ‘nomad’ spirit Ang and I hope that you find what you are looking for. Good luck and keep writing.