Cloudy Sunday Morning…

It’s an overcast day, cloudy skies, and smells like it may rain. The air is still thick with humidity, and so is my heart right now. I feel like I can’t really express what I want and feel without it being seen as something else.

I have a serious crush. I am fucking head over heels for this woman. But she thinks that I want to date someone else, which I absolutely do not. I’ve had chances to date other women, but I have turned them down because I am so into her. Just her. Only her. I’m just not the type that can date around, or be dating more than one woman at a time…I’m just not. When I am into someone romantically, it’s them and only them that I focus on. That is the case for me right now. So when I talk about love, I know who I have in my mind, who I am thinking of and wanting so badly. 😉

I may write about love, or the human conditions, but it’s just thoughts, and when I think about love I am thinking about her and how I want things to be with us.

I am considering moving. I have even looked at another place, close by to where I currently live. I will stay in southern Maine. For now my roots are here and this is where I need to be and want to be. But I would like a change; I’ve been in this place over 4 years now and I’m ready for something else. I need a bit more space and I would like to be in a nicer neighborhood. Not that my neighborhood is “bad” but it’s becoming a bit run down because the land owner does not do any maintenance of the property, does not enforce the park rules and it’s slowly becoming more and more run down. I want to get out of here and into a place that is in a park that does enforce the rules and keeps the grounds nicely. The place I looked at has about 300 more square feet of space, has more rooms and is in nice condition, although a bit older. It’s solidly built and could be a nice space for me and the pups. Right now it’s just an idea, but it’s a fairly active one. I will keep looking around, and you could be reading blogs about my moving in the near future.

I hope everyone has a great day! Peace! ~MB~

Author: MainelyButch

I am a pretty relaxed, proud, Butch and a native Mainer who enjoys reading, writing, blogging, vlogging and social interaction. I live in southern Maine, near the coast with my 2 small dogs and I hail from a very large, loving family that is historically rooted here. I write about my life, my experiences, living successfully with HIV, my YouTube experiences, and just about anything that piques my interest. This blog may contain profanity and sexual situations, and is not intended for younger audiences. Read at your own risk. At 54 I see life as just beginning a new chapter, and have decide this is the time that I need to write the stories that got me to this point. I believe we live our lives in chapters, changing, evolving and moving continuously with the times. I love to laugh, have discussions, debates and even the occasional nonsense conversation! I generally enjoy people, but not drama, hatred, ignorance or those who choose to feel they are somehow elite or superior to another simply due to their mere existence. I try to be very conscious of the health of the world around me - environmentally, socially, economically, and ethically. The people who are dear to me know me as having a tough exterior, filled with marshmallow and crunchy peanut butter. I continually strive to be the best I can be, especially to address life head on...always. View all posts by MainelyButch

1 thought on “Cloudy Sunday Morning…”

You have certainly put your heart out there for this certain someone. I think you truly have the ‘nomad’ spirit Ang and I hope that you find what you are looking for. Good luck and keep writing.