Butch Stuff

February’s End

It’s the last Friday in February, and tomorrow marks the end of the month.  I am home today, cleaning and reorganizing my office room.  In front of me is a wall with the door outside to the back deck area and a large window directly in front of me.  The snow is above the height of the bottom of the window, and the back porch is completely inaccessible because of all of the snow.  I should have been keeping it cleared, it’s the back door to the house and the fire exit.  Oh well.  The snow is glistening, in the sunshine of today.  It’s actually pretty out there, but cold as all get out.

During my cleaning process here I have come across my other computers…one is my old Viao and I just started it up…it’s running the old Windows XP operating system and is slow as hell.  I remember a day when we thought that that was fast!  How spoiled we are by advancing technology.  That computer contains blogs of mine back to 2008…from old sites and old platforms, and quite a bit of unpublished stuff.  I’m not quite sure what to do with it. Some of it is very interesting and could be rewritten and updated.  There are lots of articles I had written as I was contemplating my gender identity and life at that time.  There are old poems, some are pretty darn good!  I wish I had a way to bring them all together somehow.  I suppose I can hook to the internet with that computer and upload some to WordPress, it would be a shame to just lose those volumes of my writing from that time.  It was a time of upheaval in my life, I was on the road alot and travelling quite frequently during that time too.  My tone was much more unsettled than I have come to be now.

The other computer is a brand new Toshiba…I don’t use it because I have such dislike for Windows 8, which it has.  I do need to run the virus scan on it and get it settled.  I’m afraid to not have it because if something happens to this one, but at the same time it’s kind of a waste having it.  So, it’s packed into it’s carrying bag and there if I need it ever.  I hope not, I like this Toshiba with the Windows 7 platform much better.

I was seriously considering going to see the movie 50 Shades of Gray tonight.  I think I will probably do just that, by myself.  It’s not the kind of movie that I have anyone I around who would be interested in going with me.  But it is a movie that I do want to see, and I have yet to get around to going.  Someone told me about it, that it’s another Hollywood attempt to mainstream something…which I find interesting.  I’ve never been into hardcore BDSM, and I don’t even think that this movie is about “hardcore” stuff, but a little bit of kink never hurt anyone, and I don’t think that most of the world is as vanilla as it’s thought to be.  Humans are adventurous by nature.  It should be interesting, I’ll definitely write about my experience in viewing it.  Stay tuned.

I will be happy when this month is over and we head into the early Spring months…it’s been very long haul with all this snow and bitter cold here.  I know I’m not the only one with seasonal depression, topped with cabin fever!  It’s also easy at this time of year to get lazy socially, to not go out as much because of the cold and coping with de-thawing the car every time you want to go somewhere. I am looking forward to being able to take Nola to the park to run and play, to walking in grass and to be wearing lighter weight boots and clothing.  I can’t wait to be able to mow the lawn and to see the flowers coming up in the gardens again.  I think about evening around the bonfire pit, with a nice hot fire burning, sipping Twisted Tea and listening to the peepers singing.  Yes, all those things to look forward to and warmer temperatures too.  March usually comes in like a lion, but it will warm up over the month, and hopefully go out like a lamb…as the saying goes.

I think I am going to set up and do a Youtube video tonight.  I haven’t been doing them as regularly as I once did, and I need to update my viewers on there.  I think I go through some shy periods of time with different venues.  Once when Youtube was all the rage with non-professional bloggers, and we could actually have conversations on there it was much more fun to do.  Now there are so many professionally produced videos and it’s just not the same; the community that was once there is no longer using the venue as they once did.  But still, I have an active channel and should update for 2015 – my 6th year on Youtube!  eeek!

I am once again on the job hunt.  With Spring coming I want to be back to work both for the socialization and for the income.  I’ve been applying at auto parts supply houses and hope to get a service writer job at one of them.  I had worked in the automotive world years ago, and would like to find a position in service writing or customer service end of a parts warehouse or car care center.  Doing the online applications really is crazy though, my browser messes alot of them up and I end up having to redo them in Internet Explorer.  (I normally use Chrome).

I guess that’s it for this blog entry…I hope you are all doing well and staying warm out there!


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