Evidently I scare people. It’s just a fact. I am not sure why. But I’m really sick of it and I don’t know how to change. If it’s about how I look, then I can’t change it. If it’s because I am too passionate about things, that’s going to be really hard to change too. If people think I am some kind of thug, they are just way off base because I’m the furthest from those days as I can get.
The internet is a scary place. People like to come into your life and then sometimes they exit just as quickly. I just don’t know who to trust anymore. It scares me to even let myself get friendly nowadays, let alone let people into my life any closer. I trust too easily, and I am seeing that now.
I’ve been real. I’ve been authentically myself, and yet that’s obviously just too much for some people. So if people can’t handle me then they should just stay away.
I’ve had a pretty bad few days…this just sucks. I don’t know what to think, and no one seems to get me, so why even try explaining. I hate being alone so much, and will be glad to go back to work just to break the loneliness cycle somewhat. I know that doesn’t mean I won’t still be lonely, but at least I will see other people more regularly. Although, I know that just because you have people around you doesn’t mean you aren’t still lonely.