rTo continue the 10 day post challenge that I was given…
Six things I wish I had never done.
1. I wish I had stayed IN the Army for the full 25 years and not just done my 6 and gotten out. The Army instilled much of my character and taught me much self confidence, self reliance and self control. I was young and stupid to finish my committed time and returned to civilian life…I was much better as a soldier.
2. I wish I had never started smoking cigarettes. It’s the worst damned habit and a bitch to quit. I struggle with quitting constantly, and eventually I’ll get it…eventually.
3. I wish I hadn’t ever meddled in hard drugs. This one is sort of self explanatory…no hard drug use…no hiv now…plus none of the stupid and harsh things I saw, did and experienced in that world would be stuck in my mind today.
4. I wish I had been an easier kid for my parents. In hind-sight I can see that I have always been kind of a handful and managed to make trouble on quite a few occasions for them. All I can do now is be the best person I can be with them and the world and hope that I make up for some of the difficulties I brought on.
5. I wish I had not had my mid-life crisis at 46 and gone buck wild like I did. I kinda left a good amount of destruction in my wake, and that I am sorry for. I should have stayed right here in Maine and not traversed the country, not broken a heart or gone where I went. I did have some good times, but it wasn’t the smartest of choices that I could have made during that time.
6. I wish I had thought harder about some of my tattoos….duh
This is hard…I haven’t got a full list of things I wish I had never done. I usually do what I want to do in life, and I don’t regret even the not so good things, because they are all part of the foundation of experience on which my character and life are built. Sure, I like everyone wish that sometimes I had taken a different action in a situation or made a different decision over some issues, but for the most part I am fairly guilt free and not heavily burdened by anything that I did in my past that I wish I hadn’t done. At the moment we make decisions they seem to be the right ones, and if you stick to them then they definitely ARE the right decisions.